"Think of me..."

Recently when looking for some other things, including my Single in Missions workshop notes from Urbana 2006, I ran into my church bulletin from 02/15/2009 and also some sheets I had written some music lyrics on when I performed for the Rye Idol competition some years ago. I remember I had sung "Think of me..."

"For someone who tried so hard to get something, you sure are quick to let it go..."

Apparently that quote from THE FULL-PACKAGE was still in the clipboard when I was trying to paste something else here for safe-keeping. JM, or maybe you're JY now :P, if you're curious to what that "Full-Package" I made reference to in my e-mail really is, feel free to ask me... It will hopefully give you the same "that explains a lot" feeling it gave me regarding that incident between V and I when I wrote that package some 21 months ago.

I apparently failed to record another short show I was planning to watch so I decided to open up my Spiderman 2 Special Edition DVD instead and noticed there was a 4th subtitle option which is really like that "Pop-up Video" stuff they used to have on MTV that gives you a lot of inside info about the comics so it had more than my anticipated share of undivided attention I had planned to originally give it because of that. Based on the scene I chose to start the DVD from in the Scene Selection menu instead of what I originally had in mind to pick much further along in the film, it brought me back to a scene I had forgotten was even in there.

In this scene, Peter Parker was talking to Dr. Oct (before he became evil) and his wife and the professor was telling him how keeping something "as complicated as love a secret" was not a good thing and it would eat one up inside just like a disease... Ironically, shortly after I wrote another friend an e-mail about how I've entrusted everything related to my marriage into God's hands now and made reference to a sermon of my Pastor's about Isaiah 39 and Isaiah 40 some time ago, something interesting happened.....

I randomly opened up my bible and I just so happen to land in 2 Kings 20... and so having a spiritual sense/instinct about this, I decided to read it. See, that's the key here people, you gotta have a sense of calling behind it to do this, don't assume that every time you randomly flip through the bible that is exactly what God is trying to say to you, because it isn't something I do on a daily basis or anything. But anyhow I thought to myself "Envoys from Babylon" (as it was open to the second half of the chapter on this page)... are these the same as the ones in Isaiah 39??? YES! Lo and behold, I cross referenced the two passages and discovered they are in fact two same accounts of the same event. I later also read the beginning of 2 Kings 20 and I was like "Hey... Hezekiah got sick... like a disease, LOL just like that scene in Spiderman 2..." BUT more importantly, God delivered Hezekiah through it all and I know it's truly like I told my friend in that e-mail, He'll get me through my struggles also.

It reminded me of another incident some weeks ago at church when we had sung one of the songs I mentioned in my previous blog entry at the end of church and I noticed a friend had what I initially thought was her textbook open so I asked "What are you reading (or maybe I said 'studying') there ____?" I had to repeat the question a few times "What are you reading ____?"... "What are you reading____?"... and finally I got my answer "Oh Isaiah... but I'm not really reading it...I just have it open..." It's interesting that this is the second time I had acted on a "spiritual hunch" and yet again the other party never understood my question at first. It's funny I had to ask that question like maybe 3 times it could have been, LOL it's like "Just answer the question, stop making my spiritual pilgrimage difficult!" :P

"It doesn't matter if you win by an inch or a mile... winning's winning..."

In a last ditch effort to find peace about the whole situation and also to get over my overwhelming desire to win the MCBCSL tournament this year even though I knew the odds were stacked strongly against us, but I couldn't sleep the whole night, I had to do something...I "made a covenant with my God" or a vow if you want to call it that instead; That if I won the tournament, I would, well you know... "tie the knot"... Well I did not win, the MCBCSL tournament, which was initially very disappointing, but I feel it was maybe for the best. Besides it's not like I feel like I shouldn't "fulfil my end of the bargain" (which is ironically one of the main themes of my next seminary paper, please pray for me because I've been having such writers' block lately).

David also said to Solomon his son, "Be strong and courageous, and do the work. Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the LORD God, my God, is with you. He will not fail you or forsake you until all the work for the service of the temple of the LORD is finished. [1 Chronicles 28:20]

But instead, I've learned I need to trust further in God's timing over the whole thing, because after all, even God delayed, hehehe :)

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Insider hint: "I'm _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _' WHITE KNIGHT..."

ROFL hint: "Not 'IF' K____.... but 'WHEN'...."