Sunday, June 28, 2009

I have not forgotten.... this is Your God cast O Lord....

I have been having trouble sleeping these last few nights... the pain from my recovering finger kept me up almost till 6AM Sunday morning and the painkillers didn't seem to do much... I was speculating maybe they backfired and maybe caused me pain instead, so I didn't even take them tonight at first, but yet the finger still hurts...

To be honest, I had to rewrite most of this blog entry, because the auto-save wasn't working, so "oh me of little faith" I tried to copy and paste the whole thing into a text file "just in case" and guess what, I hit "paste" instead of "copy" and nuked pretty much the whole thing. *sigh*... well in the words of William Forester (as per the HW production): "... the second draft is written with your mind..." but this 2nd version is going to make me seem holier than I really was if I cut out the "faith struggle part"...

Anyhow to cut to the chase, God told me "I have something to say to you... listen to 99.5 FM..." so I go onto the web cast and here are the first 3 songs...

1) Brandon Heath - Give Me Your Eyes Lyrics
2) (the vocals on this female singer were kind of hard to make out, the parts I did get were too generic so google as I might, I could not identify this song)
3) Draw me close to You

Anyhow the stream was already in the middle of song #1 when I tuned it out ("His frequency" as something PF explained to me recently the last time I talked to him):

Too ashamed to tell his wife
He's out of work
He's buying time
All those people going somewhere
Why have I never cared?

*Chorus

Me: Say... what?

Full Lyrics @http://www.kovideo.net/lyrics/b/Brandon-Heath/Give-Me-Your-Eyes.html

Now song 3... oh boy... I remember this one time about 3 months ago, God was telling me "go to service again Sunday and you will have all the answers you seek..." and so I did 02/22/2009... I wasn't really sure what God was trying to tell me exactly, but I do remember the irony that a lot of the songs that morning were kinda err... "intimate"... especially "Draw me close to You"... and this was the song I was thinking about in particular when I was sharing with UT and explaining "We don't need to sing these particular type of songs to understand our love for God..." and he just kinda giggled (understandingly I assume?)...

So what are You saying? That She still loves me? But I think EVEN MORE IMPORTANTLY... God still loves me... this I know... Whoa... when I type this sentence I still have the stream on and this song just came on:

VERSE:
Who am I that you are mindful of me
That you hear me, when I call
Is it true that you are thinking of me
How you love me, it's amazing (Who am I Lord)

CHORUS:
I am a friend of God
I am a friend of God
I am a friend of God
He calls me friend

Verse

BRIDGE:
God Almighty
Lord of Glory
You have called me friend

Chorus

Anyhow, guess what, the night before I was thinking of this quote from the same show I got the "...that's why there's us, Champions, to live as if the world is as it ought to be, to show it what it can be etc..."

"_ _ _ doesn't want you, but I still do..."

Ok, to end your cliff-hanging, "God doesn't want you, but I still do..." and it was spoken by the umm... well one of the "lovers", of the character who says the first quote... but the same night I was just typing an e-mail to my friend to tell her that I've been getting things all backwards, I need to put God first not my marriage concerns... Well guess what, God's talking back... I see He does "have something to tell you (K)..." afterall :)

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

3 "lessons from _ _ _ _ _"...

"Let its foundations be laid" [*5* words from devo passage today...]

I noticed I last blogged 3 days ago and yesturday I was watching a movie that was released 3 years after the 2### answer in my 06/9/09 entry, the time on the clock I typed this sentence is 3:33...

For those of you who know me long enough, yes, lessons from God are also "free" as well :)

Anyhow I woke up late today as usual, it seems after the surgery, I've been sleeping in a lot lately likely because I can't sleep well when my hand is hurting and while I usually don't dream much or remember my dreams, I recently been having about 14 days of dreaming which seem to indirectly be relating to some things if you interpret them in a certain way...hence why I recently remarked "where's Daniel when you need him?" But when I woke up today, interestingly enough God told me to go look up Genesis 41:6, I decided to do a "check and balance" and I prayed to make sure that God indeed wanted me to look at this verse:

Genesis 41:6 (New International Version)
After them, seven other heads of grain sprouted—thin and scorched by the east wind.

Anyhow, this verse is actual part of Pharoah's dream when Joseph was exiled into Egpyt, God reminded me that Daniel is "not the only" person who can interpret dreams... It also reminded me of two other important things that "God is in control" and I should hang in there, continue trusting in God and persist in my recent struggle against my temptations with "strength"... The motivation being that God CAN and WILL deliever me...

Later I turned onwards in my bible and was brought to another book, Jeremiah, and I thought to myself, does this book even have 41 chapters and the voice of truth replied "yes"...

Jeremiah 41:6 (New International Version)
Ishmael son of Nethaniah went out from Mizpah to meet them, weeping as he went. When he met them, he said, "Come to Gedaliah son of Ahikam."

I don't believe this is the same Ishmael my friend ueed in his analogy on 05/22/2009 but the word "weeping" reminded me of one of 3 blog entrieS where the following was quoted: "weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning." [Psalm 30:5]

I wanted more, I was wondering what Isaiah 41:6 was and continued going further in my bible whe the voice of truth told me thst Isaiah comes before Jeremiah and "Boy was He right..."

Isaiah 41:6 (New International Version)

each helps the other
and says to his brother, "Be strong!"

"Be Strong" reminded me of a variety of things, but let me first quote 3 paragraphs from another blog:

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...But as for you, be strong and do not give up, for your work will be rewarded." (vs 2-7) [2 Chronicles 15, but I've only included verse 7 here...]

if you seek, you will find.
and really, i had not been seeking.
want God to be with you? then be with him.
wasn't really doing that either.

but no matter how long israel was without God, they just had to seek after God, and he was found. sometimes, it's really hard to see God in certain circumstances. you can say all the christian cliche things to yourself and to others, but it's not really taken to heart. it's not living and active. but really look hard. really seek. be strong and don't give up. he will be found.

the passage continues to say how asa "took courage" (v8) and got rid of all the false idols from his land and the ones he captured. people from other tribes came and settled where he was "when they saw that the Lord his God was with him" (v9). as the king, he gathered all the people and they all "entered into a covenant to seek the Lord, the God of their fathers, with all their heart and soul...All Judah rejoiced about the oath because they had sworn it wholeheartedly. They sought God eagerly, and he was found by them. So the Lord gave them rest on every side." (v12, 15)

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These are 1 of 3 entries written in close promixity to each other by one of the "3 bachelorettes", one of these entries was written 3 years ago on the same day I wrote one of my own. I hope she doesn't mind, she's also the first of the three of them to get married...I'm sorry after s_______ removal, my h___ hurts so I won't be able to drive for a while.

"We know that to find God and to accept Jesus Christ would be a very inconvenient experience. It would involve the rethinking of our whole outlook on life and the readjustment of our whole manner of life. And it is a combination of intellectual and moral cowardice which makes us hesitate. We do not find because we do not seek. We do not seek because we do not want to find, and we know that the way to be certain of not finding is not to seek." [John Stott, Basic Christianity, pg. 22]

Jeremiah 41:9 (New International Version)

Now the cistern where he threw all the bodies of the men he had killed along with Gedaliah was the one King Asa had made as part of his defense against Baasha king of Israel. Ishmael son of Nethaniah filled it with the dead.

...*3* verses later after Jeremiah 41:6 there is a mention of a "cistern" (Joseph was thrown into one of these by his half brothers [Genesis 37:22]) and also there is mention of 'King Asa' "as well"...

A friend of mine recently remarked that if people are in love, they would want to try to contact each other as much as possible. Well, God loves you [John 3:16, 1 John, 1 John 4:16] so by conclusion, He would and should be trying to contact/talk to us as much as possible according to my friend. Well guess what then? When we talk to God, He talks back... Albeit, we live in a society that is crazy about instant gratification and hence we can often expect an answer from God right away, an answer that may not come right away. But another issue we have at times is not listening.

God can use just about any means to speak to us at any time, but I believe our main issue is our hearts aren't always open to listen to what He's trying to say...

"Principle #3: Good communication doesn't happen by accident." [???]

Now of course, '3' is "not the only" way God is able to speak to me, He speaks in other ways as well, but due to my limited time and ability to type, recently my blog entries have only been focusing on the results of the "*3* prayer" I prayed myself 3 months ago and asked JC to pray for as well. Because I believe that God can use more interesting ways to speak to us at times when and if He so choose.

They were also showing the episode of Star Trek TNG where Picard is captured and interrogated by the Cardassians and the main interrogator kept asking him "How many lights do you see?" At the sides of the cell there are 3 blue lights/windows...

"All I had to do was say there was 5 lights when in fact there were only 4...I believed that I could see 5 lights..." [That episode]

Psalms 53 was also brought to my attention after I realized there are more seven letter words than names...

Now in conclusion when it was really noisy upstairs and I was unable to really read the passage for devo today, I went onto biblegateway.com to get the audio version and then I saw the verse of the day...



After seeing this as the verse of the day I wonder if these are only "lessons from above" or perhaps like lessons "like a dove" "as well..." "like you know..." "...voice of the holy spirit..." haha...

Isaiah 38:14
I cried like a swift or thrush, I moaned like a mourning dove. My eyes grew weak as I looked to the heavens. I am troubled; O Lord, come to my aid!"

Isaiah 59:11
We all growl like bears; we moan mournfully like doves. We look for justice, but find none; for deliverance, but it is far away.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

5(AM) away...

I finally get the "5AM" posts now... *sigh*... that too was part of His indeniable msg to me...

"Yet it was good of you to share in my troubles." [5 away...NIV]

SONG
Singer: Back Street Boys
Album: Black & Blue
Song's name: It's True
Song info: (4:14) Written by Carlsson, Martin, Kevin Scott Richardson
Lyrics: Even a lover makes a mistake sometimes
Like any other
Fall out and lose his mind
And I’m sorry for the things I did
For your teardrops over words I said
Can you forgive me and open your heart once again, oh yeah

Chorus repeat

It’s true
I mean it
From the bottom of my heart
Yeah, it’s true
Without you I would fall apart

Whatever happened
I know that I was wrong, oh yes
Can you believe me
Maybe your faith is gone
But I love you and I always will
So I wonder if you want me still
Can you forgive me and open your heart once again, oh yeah

Chorus repeat

I’d do anything to make it up to you
So please understand
And open your heart once again

Chorus repeat

[http://www.loglar.com/song.php?id=9175]

Friday, June 12, 2009

"Recommended..."

I think I have a lot of things "remember"ing me lately hence I've also been getting recommendations...

I guess I know what happen to my former ______ :P

With my finger down I won;t be playing Volley-ball for sure and I hope I can still play other sports at times...

Such as Soft-ball... hehe... at first I didn't care much, but now I love the game...

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Think FIVE/*5*...

During the Sunday sermon, the date of the sermon seemed just slightly out of sequence and I thought about a line from one of my favourite animated series I used to watch on Y**... "Because 7 Ate 9..."

So I thought hmm God: 06/07/08? Not quite, I don't have a blog entry for this day, but it "just so happens" the same song I was thinking about on the drive back does exist on a 06/10/08 entry (*3* days offset)... Tommorow morning I have to go get some surgery done on my finger to correct what my doctor decided to call a "swan-neck" deformity on my ring finger, so I might not blog for a while...

Here's a puzzle for you to chew on in the meantime while I am recovering and may not be able to type for a while or at least not in the same way I am typing now, you'll probably need to use your 'spiritual sense':

Hint: Think *5*...

The *?* ***** of 2###:

R****
P****
S****
C****
J****

As K**** would say: "Huhu..."

Monday, June 08, 2009

*1* 3T5...

Every time I come across this passage, I am reminded of her..."...the only one who makes me feel like I can fly..."

13 These six towns you give will be your cities of refuge. 14 Give *3* on this side of the Jordan and *3* in Canaan as cities of refuge. [Numbers 35:13]

The word "three" appears exactly Seven times in this passage...

Mr. K Arthur really did "kill all the women man..." :'(

Sunday, June 07, 2009

*3*: (8) Jesus S****, Jesus SPEAK to me...

Job 33
1 "But now, Job, listen to my words;
pay attention to everything I say.
2 I am about to open my mouth;
my words are on the tip of my tongue.

3 My words come from an upright heart;
my lips sincerely SPEAK what I know.

4 The Spirit of God has made me;
the breath of the Almighty gives me life.

5 Answer me then, if you can;
stand up and argue your case before me.

6 I am the same as you in God's sight;
I too am a piece of clay.

7 No fear of me should alarm you,
nor should my hand be heavy on you.

8 "But you have said in my hearing—
I heard the very words—

9 'I am pure, I have done no wrong;
I am clean and free from sin.

10 Yet God has found fault with me;
he considers me his enemy.

11 He fastens my feet in shackles;
he keeps close watch on all my paths.'

12 "But I tell you, in this you are not right,
for God is greater than any mortal.

13 Why do you complain to him
that he responds to no one's words [a]?

14 For God does SPEAK—now one way, now another—
though no one perceives it.

15 In a dream, in a vision of the night,
when deep sleep falls on people
as they slumber in their beds,

16 he may SPEAK in their ears
and terrify them with warnings,

17 to turn them from wrongdoing
and keep them from pride,

18 to preserve them from the pit,
their lives from perishing by the sword. [b]

19 "Or they may be chastened on a bed of pain
with constant distress in their bones,

20 so that their bodies find food repulsive
and their souls loathe the choicest meal.

21 Their flesh wastes away to nothing,
and their bones, once hidden, now stick out.

22 They draw near to the pit,
and their lives to the messengers of death. [c]

23 Yet if there is an angel at their side,
a messenger, one out of a thousand,
sent to tell them how to be upright,

24 and he is gracious to them and says to God,
'Spare them from going down to the pit;
I have found a ransom for them—

25 let their flesh be renewed like a child's;
let them be restored as in the days of their youth'—

26 then they can pray to God and find favor with him,
they will see God's face and shout for joy;
he will restore them to full well-being.

27 And they will go to others and say,
'We have sinned, we have perverted what is right,
but we did not get what we deserved.

28 God has delivered us from going down to the pit,
and we shall live to enjoy the light of life.'

29 "God does all these things to people—
twice, even three times—

30 to turn them back from the pit,
that the light of life may shine on them.

Before I quote the last *3* verses, I must quote one of my own...

K: "Not once, not twice, but *3*rice..." (as per SH in MCBCSL when they played on team GOD IS GOOD [GIG], PK's "roots"...)

31 "Pay attention, Job, and listen to me;
be silent, and I will speak.

32 If you have anything to say, answer me;
speak up, for I want to vindicate you.

33 But if not, then listen to me;
be silent, and I will teach you wisdom."

Prior to the last three verses, the word "speak" only shows up *3* times in this passage, I counted, in total including the last *3*... it's 5 times...

...the next generation

Not sure who invented it, but presently, it has been a number of years ago now that I have heard someone express that "a generation is ...