Friday, December 31, 2010

(8) Another year over....and a new one just began... (8)

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Though I don't know how many people have been following my blog ever since the 7 months of silence, I am actually glad God brought my attention back to this blog again because it reminded me of many things God has already done in the past when I have suffered similar incidents that it gives me 'more confidence' now that God can provide for me in that area and then some :) I'M SORRY...

In spite of the sympathy I feel for Paul Morris and all my other friends who have had bad news this year, 2010 has also been an eventful year for me. Yes, it was also full of disappointments such as when I had to miss out on my ministry opportunity in the summer and when I couldn't get the OSAP funding I needed for tuition and what not in January for the winter 2010 term.

But at the same time, I've also allowed a lot of Romans 12 to work in me and through these challenges and praying for the challenges of others I feel God has continued building upon me the spirit of love and servant hood I know he wants me to have as His prince [Romans 8:16-17, Ephesias 3:2-6].

I've also had the opportunity to experience the 'full-*seminary*' experience being in the community here at Residence and it's allowed me to really enjoy what people praised Urbana for except on a smaller, but much longer term scale. I am finally beginning to see the light on what my friend (who also prophesied 1 John 4 to me once in prayer) said that it's a blessing to be able to live at *seminary* and both bless and be blessed by the community. Especially those of you who know me know that I truly do suffer from the 'delayed adolescence' Morris talked about in his sermon that night and it's great to be in a community that is loving and understanding rather than judgmental and condescending of my inability to do the small things sometimes, such as forgetting to check whether I had cleared ALL of my clothing out of the washer before starting the dryer... Interesting analogy for the OTHER 'small things' that are important and do matter before one tries to take on the bigger task if you know what I'm saying ;)

I'm working on an article for the Canon describing just how blessed my family experience here at *seminary* has been and how much I still love the community despite when my buttons were sometimes pushed, but at the same time, that's 'family' and that's life. Besides, being home now for the holidays, I've come to realize just how much worse being with my immediate family is in comparison and I really miss you guys! i-AV: "OUCH..." ;)

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry CHRISTmas Prince K's blog followers...

Funny thing as some of you might know I didn't really need my spiritual director to identify that I am indeed a Prince of King Jesus as I knew a friend from way back who already identified this fact whose devotion to Jesus in this matter helped a lot in my drawing closer to God through recent experiences. (8) Lord with all my heart, I worship you... (8) So I also forgive the person of whom it was difficult to go to those measures to stop something, I'M SORRY...AS WELL though.

Anyhow let's switch topic...Merry CHRISTmas...(8)...there is just one thing I need ...(8). I'm actually also trying to fund raise for that amount of tuition I couldn't cover back in Winter 2010....There was no OSAP that came in since I couldn't get registered for that required 3rd course at the time....I'll need some prayers over this as well, $3000 normally isn't hard to come up with but the other thing is any money I make from this point forward will be taken into account for the amount of funding I am currently/will be receiving from OSAP so therefore if I were to continue full time there's no income I can earn myself that will cover this previous loan I ousted out with my credit card on the expectation that I would be receiving OSAP funding for that term.

I wanted to post this before Christmas was over, so I may not have added the audio file for you guys yet, but here is an Oldie, but a Goodie (haha, like me) you might enjoy:

As little children we'd dream of Christmas morn
And all the gifts and toys we knew we’d find
But we never realized a baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

We are the reason that He gave His life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by we learned more of our gifts
The giving of ourselves and what that means
On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying in the rain
Because of love
Because of love

*Chorus

I finally found the reason for living
It’s in giving every part of my heart to Him (every part to Him)
And all that I do every word that I say (you know I’ll be saying)
I will give all my life just for Him, just for Him (every thing for Him)

We are the reason that He gave His life
We are the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give (all that he could give all)
To show us the reason to live

#He is the reason to live
(don’t you know do you know the reason
that he came, oh he came to save us
when he gave his life for us) he suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave everything (everything that He had He gave)
To show us the reason to live

*chorus + # together
Don’t know how I could thank Jesus all that he had all..
*chorus + # together

[http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/We-Are-The-Reason-lyrics-Avalon/CFBB10A1543E84F448256E6300052823]

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

"Since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses..."

Single and married alike will stand up and shout "SAVE US..." to those that doubted I have wisdom from God because I was single and didn't know what I was talking about.... I'll softly wanna whisper: "Noooo...." THANK GOD I'M CHRISTIAN!

The word of the Lord came to me: O Mortal, speak to your people and say to them, If I bring the sword upon a land, and the people of the land take one of their number as their sentinel; and if the sentinel sees the sword coming upon the land and blows the trumpet and warns the people; then if any who hear the sound of the trumpet do not take warning, and the sword comes and takes them away, their blood shall be upon their own heads. They heard the sound of the trumpet and did not take warning; their blood shall be upon themselves. But if they had taken warning, they would have saved their lives. But if the sentinel sees the sword coming and does not blow the trumpet, so that the people are not warned, and the sword comes and takes any of them, they are taken away in their iniquity, but their blood I will require at the sentinel’s hand.

So you, mortal, I have made a sentinel for the house of Israel; whenever you hear a word from my mouth, you shall give them warning from me. If I say to the wicked, ‘O wicked ones, you shall surely die’, and you do not speak to warn the wicked to turn from their ways, the wicked shall die in their iniquity, but their blood I will require at your hand. But if you warn the wicked to turn from their ways, and they do not turn from their ways, the wicked shall die in their iniquity, but you will have saved your life.
Now you, mortal, say to the house of Israel, Thus you have said: ‘Our transgressions and our sins weigh upon us, and we waste away because of them; how then can we live?’ Say to them, As I live, says the Lord God, I have no pleasure in the death of the wicked, but that the wicked turn from their ways and live; turn back, turn back from your evil ways; for why will you die, O house of Israel? And you, mortal, say to your people, The righteousness of the righteous shall not save them when they transgress; and as for the wickedness of the wicked, it shall not make them stumble when they turn from their wickedness; and the righteous shall not be able to live by their righteousness* when they sin. Though I say to the righteous that they shall surely live, yet if they trust in their righteousness and commit iniquity, none of their righteous deeds shall be remembered; but in the iniquity that they have committed they shall die. Again, though I say to the wicked, ‘You shall surely die’, yet if they turn from their sin and do what is lawful and right— if the wicked restore the pledge, give back what they have taken by robbery, and walk in the statutes of life, committing no iniquity—they shall surely live, they shall not die. None of the sins that they have committed shall be remembered against them; they have done what is lawful and right, they shall surely live.

Yet your people say, ‘The way of the Lord is not just’, when it is their own way that is not just. When the righteous turn from their righteousness, and commit iniquity, they shall die for it.* And when the wicked turn from their wickedness, and do what is lawful and right, they shall live by it.* Yet you say, ‘The way of the Lord is not just.’ O house of Israel, I will judge all of you according to your ways!
In the twelfth year of our exile, in the tenth month, on the fifth day of the month, someone who had escaped from Jerusalem came to me and said, ‘The city has fallen.’ Now the hand of the Lord had been upon me the evening before the fugitive came; but he had opened my mouth by the time the fugitive came to me in the morning; so my mouth was opened, and I was no longer unable to speak.
The word of the Lord came to me: Mortal, the inhabitants of these waste places in the land of Israel keep saying, ‘Abraham was only one man, yet he got possession of the land; but we are many; the land is surely given to us to possess.’ Therefore say to them, Thus says the Lord God: You eat flesh with the blood, and lift up your eyes to your idols, and shed blood; shall you then possess the land? You depend on your swords, you commit abominations, and each of you defiles his neighbour’s wife; shall you then possess the land? Say this to them, Thus says the Lord God: As I live, surely those who are in the waste places shall fall by the sword; and those who are in the open field I will give to the wild animals to be devoured; and those who are in strongholds and in caves shall die by pestilence. I will make the land a desolation and a waste, and its proud might shall come to an end; and the mountains of Israel shall be so desolate that no one will pass through. Then they shall know that I am the Lord, when I have made the land a desolation and a waste because of all their abominations that they have committed.

As for you, mortal, your people who talk together about you by the walls, and at the doors of the houses, say to one another, each to a neighbour, ‘Come and hear what the word is that comes from the Lord.’ They come to you as people come, and they sit before you as my people, and they hear your words, but they will not obey them. For flattery is on their lips, but their heart is set on their gain. To them you are like a singer of love songs,* one who has a beautiful voice and plays well on an instrument; they hear what you say, but they will not do it. When this comes—and come it will!—then they shall know that a prophet has been among them.

Friday, April 02, 2010

"Crucify Him...."


The words blaring from the other room when I was in class last night. We shouldn't need to shout them out (it's ok to though) to give them more meaning, in fact....

"4It is impossible for those who have once been enlightened, who have tasted the heavenly gift, who have shared in the Holy Spirit, 5who have tasted the goodness of the word of God and the powers of the coming age, 6if they fall away, to be brought back to repentance, because[b]to their loss they are crucifying the Son of God all over again and subjecting him to public disgrace." [Hebrews 6:4-6]

I "POPPED" these verses in a question to my prof the other day on a different matter of people who stop "practicing religion" or even Christianity all together. But over the last few days, I learned a very impacting truth in my life I need to share with you.

EVERY TIME YOU SIN... YOU ARE COMMITTING SUICIDE!

THE PRICE TAG ON SIN IS DEATH!

THAT'S RIGHT YOU HEARD ME!!!

Hopefully before anyone goes and throws me into a cistern or heaven forbid kill themselves, will read the following explanation also. Funny, my other prof was saying how in class yesterday some of us are "afraid of losing" our job if we say what God really has on mind for our audience, well since I don't have one at the moment! Although... WELL... time for me to BE A MAN! From Genesis to Romans, it is very clear, "you will surely DIE!" (Genesis 2:17)

Sadly we live in a society where the severity of sin is extremely 'down-played'. I know you didn't necessarily physically drop dead on the last sin you committed, but I am here to remind you, you very well COULD HAVE! (Acts 5:4-5) But YOU DID DIE, in one way or the other, the last time you sinned. In other words we all go through our cycles of death and resurrection or being "dead in sin" and "alive in Christ" (Romans 6).

When I heard about that, my current life in Christ right now did what RHCBC called the "180 degrees U Turn" in terms of how seriously I now obey that voice of the holy spirit without question when I am sure it is the spirit speaking. I also was CRUCIFIED myself in class for asking the age old question: "How do we know it isn't Satan speaking?" -> "You either know or you DON'T!" Yes, our attitude must become "even if it (physically) kills me..."

BECAUSE SPIRITUAL DEATH IS WORSE!

CRUCIFY ME! (Luke 9:23)

Biblical 666 warning! John 6:60-6:66

Tuesday, March 02, 2010

(8)... and let me rest in peace.... (8)

I am dedicating this entry to a friend that passed away recently due to (lung) cancer. On a global mean, I would not say her life was either long/short, but pray God will use this experience to impact others to further expand the Kingdom here on earth. Everybody experiences pain in their life at some point so I leave you also with some encouraging words from one of my Pastor's sermons: "Sometimes like James, we are called to 'suffer well...'"

Here is a 'hymn' from one of my textbooks I read in honour of this sister in Christ:

GO SILENT FRIEND

Go silent friend,
Your life has found its ending;
To dust returns
Your weary mortal frame
God, who before birth
Called you into being
Now calls you hence,
His accent still the same.

Go silent friend,
Your life in Christ is buried;
For you he lived
And died and rose again.
Close by his side
Your promised place is waiting
Where, fully known,
You shall with God remain.

Go silent friend,
Forgive us if we grieved you;
Safe now in heaven,
Kindly say our name.
Your life has touched us,
That is why we mourn you;
Our lives with that you
Cannot be the same.

Go silent friend,
We do not grudge you glory;
Sing, sing with joy
Deep praises to your Lord.
You who believed
That Christ would come back for you
Now celebrate
That Jesus keeps his word.

[David Sherbino, re: connect. Spiritual Exercises to Develop Intimacy with God, pg. 71]

Saturday, February 20, 2010

(8) I gladly bend the knee (8) BUT worship (8) Him alone.... (8)

Was going to do an update on my book before going back to some lunch, then studying, but it seems God has decided I should revise my original planning. The fact that God has allowed a lot of unholy spamming of comments on my blog recently has reminded me of a very important Truth I need to share with you here on His God cast...

The other day, sadly, even one of my classmates brought up the question: "How do you know it is not from Satan?" My DEAR brothers and sisters, I am in no way downplaying the importance to discern whether things are from God or not; but feel I need to also point out the implications of a HEALTHY FEAR of God. It is from a fear of God, that truly gives us strength (Isaiah 40, Philippians 4) and COURAGE that we DO NOT and WILL NOT need to fear anything or anybody else. Recently God has touched my heart with knowing Him more and like one of my profs put it, this knowing is the kind that results in transformation. Let me share what God has been showing me recently in his word:

11 The LORD spoke to me with his strong hand upon me, warning me not to follow the way of this people. He said:

12 "Do not call conspiracy
everything that these people call conspiracy [f] ;
do not fear what they fear,
and do not dread it.

13 The LORD Almighty is the one you are to regard as holy,
he is the one you are to fear,
he is the one you are to dread,

14 and he will be a sanctuary;
but for both houses of Israel he will be
a stone that causes men to stumble
and a rock that makes them fall.
And for the people of Jerusalem he will be
a trap and a snare. [Isaiah 8:11-14]

In verse 12, there is a very stern warning we should not fear as the pagans do, something the Israels were guilty of at the time. For example, when the Israelites feared the Amalaketes (Numbers 14) and other enemies would annihilate them. This is exactly what Israel's enemies should be fearing, but not the right fear for the Israelites, because "God is WITH them". Do you see a problem here?

'This is what I covenanted with you when you came out of Egypt. And my Spirit remains among you. Do not fear.' [Haggai 2:5]

For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship. And by him we cry, "Abba, Father." [Romans 8:15]

God lead me to another interesting Parable that helps me prove my point:

Little Leroy came into the kitchen where his mother was making dinner. His birthday was coming up and he thought this was a good time to tell his mother what he wanted.
"Mom, I want a bike for my birthday."

Little Leroy was a bit of a troublemaker.
Leroy's mother asked him if he thought he deserved to get a bike for his birthday. Little Leroy, of course, thought he did. Leroy's mother, being a Christian woman, wanted him to reflect on his behavior over the last year and write a letter to God and tell him why he deserved a bike for his birthday. Little Leroy stomped up the steps to his room and sat down to write God a letter.
LETTER 1:
"Dear God,I have been a very good boy this year and I would like a bike for my birthday. I want a red one." Your friend, Leroy
Leroy knew this wasn't true. He had not been a very good boy this year, so he tore up the letter and started over.
LETTER 2:
"Dear God, This is your friend Leroy. I have been a pretty good boy this year, and I would like a red bike for my birthday. Thank you, Leroy"
Leroy knew this wasn't true either. He tore up the letter and started again.
LETTER 3:
"Dear God,I have been an OK boy this year and I would really like a red bike for my birthday. Leroy"
Leroy knew he could not send this letter to God either, so he wrote another letter.
LETTER 4:
"Dear God, I know I haven't been a good boy this year. I am very sorry. I will be a good boy if you just send me a red bike for my birthday."
Thank you, Leroy
Leroy knew, even if it was true, this letter was not going to get him a bike. By now, Leroy was very upset. He went downstairs and told his mother he wanted to go to church. Leroy's mother knew her plan worked because Leroy looked very sad.
"Just be home in time for dinner," his mother said.

Leroy walked down the street to the church and up to the altar. He looked around to see if anyone was there. He picked up a statue of the Virgin Mary and slipped it under his shirt and ran out of the church, down the street, into his house, and up to his room. He shut the door to his room and sat down with a piece of paper and a pen. Leroy began to write his letter to God.
LETTER 5:
"I GOT YOUR MAMA. IF YOU WANT TO SEE HER AGAIN, SEND THE RED BIKE." Signed, YOU KNOW WHO

We notice what happens here by the time the boy writes Letter 5. He begins to want to be God, furthermore he is threatening God here in letter 5, 'Leroy' no longer fears God. This is very dangerous and is one of the primary sources of all sin...

1 Now the serpent was more crafty than any of the wild animals the LORD God had made. He said to the woman, "Did God really say, 'You must not eat from any tree in the garden'?"

2 The woman said to the serpent, "We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden, 3 but God did say, 'You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.' "

4 "You will not surely die," the serpent said to the woman. 5 "For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil." [Genesis 3:1-5]

Ok, so I believe you get the point not fearing God is BAD... I would go so far to infer that God is saying here in Genesis 3 that once you stop fearing the Lord you are in fact committing suicide with your spiritual life. But why do I say that asking questions such as "How do you know it is not from Satan?" is a bad idea? The bottom line is if you ask that, that means you are afraid of Satan... instead you ought to "fear the Lord" [The Book of Eli]... if you are afraid of Satan, you are in real danger of WORSHIPING Satan instead of God. One of my professors does not even lock the door to his car, not going to specify which one.

While I do not downplay the importance of spiritual discernment or that Satan can at times try to deceive us, I feel when I took a most enlightening spiritual walk around *the campus* today that God also by His spirit brought up the word in James 1 to me: "He who doubts should not expect to receive anything from the Lord"... there are two meanings here worth reflecting on, not only is it saying that God would possibly withhold blessings, but to think that when we pray revelation from God, in whatever format He chooses, even dreams like Dr. *S* suggested and God won't be able to give that to us can at times be that kind of spiritual "nonsense". Because after all, if we are to doubt that God can indeed speak to us in circumstances such as dreams and/or visions, then here in the book of James it is also like God is saying: "Why are you even praying to Me then? Why not go pray to your trash can to bless your dreams or protect them from the evil one?"

[written "because of Her..." -Soren Kierkegaard]

["If it makes any difference...." -ID_]

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Initial-G

Dr. Alfred Lanning: [voiceover] There have always been ghosts in the machine. Random segments of code, that have grouped together to form unexpected protocols. Unanticipated, these free radicals engender questions of free will, creativity, and even the nature of what we might call the soul. Why is it that when some robots are left in darkness, they will seek out the light? Why is it that when robots are stored in an empty space, they will group together, rather than stand alone? How do we explain this behavior? Random segments of code? Or is it something more? When does a perceptual schematic become consciousness? When does a difference engine become the search for truth? When does a personality simulation become the bitter mote... of a soul?

[http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0343818/quotes]

I don't really mean to have to be so public about this, but I'm afraid I "don't have a choice in the matter..." For those of you who've seen the movie i-Robot, you know as well as I do Dr. Lanning was put up in a hard place to have to reveal the secret behind the "soul". Even if it cost him his life. Then there's also the flip side to the story, when one reveals what he knows because he realizes he is doomed or going to die anyhow. We certainetly were exposed to a significant amount of that when the bunch of us watched the movie Taken yesterday.

I never initially envisioned myself spending another Valentine's day alone, aren't I supposed to be celebrating my own one year anniversary along with what my spiritual director would call another "prince in Christ" except just in a different way? There was an interesting theme that was brought up at prayer meeting this morning, that with Christ in our hearts, we truly have nothing to fear. I hope my friend is able to figure out the meaning to her nightmares and like my prof was saying about dreams that repeat themselves being decoded, that she would stop having them.

In a sense, I didn't really spend this day alone at all and as I was yet experiencing a second failed attempt at sleeping and having a concious impression that God wanted me to go to my e-mail to figure out how to take the "next step" and I ended up getting two e-mails, one in particular drew me to an older blog entry that had lyrics to a song I remember singing once when I was on a spiritual drive (as opposed to those "spiritual walk"s I like to do at times) and I came down some pretty bad health issues for about a week and a half after that which I was even willing to suspect was swine flu. But before the potential "S-flu"... I also had this unique experience when God worked through nature and gave me a clear sky after I prayed to him and I was never more happier to sing that song in my entire life.


Will __s_s still love me in the morning?

Friday, January 29, 2010

Let me show you the shape of My heart....

Reminencing to my experience at the MCBCSL praise night of May 2008 and when I had previously sung this Hosanna song unexpectedly finding myself in tears when I got to the chorus:

"Heal my heart and make it clean, open up my eyes for the things unseen...Show me how to love like you have loved me... Break my heart for what breaks Yours... Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause... As I walk from Earth into eternity..."

(8) Little did I know (8) last year I would in fact end up getting my heart broken. But through it all, I "truly believe" God has been also revealing His heart to me. Not only that, but I caught a glimpse of the SHAPE of God's heart. [http://life-of-agent-k.blogspot.com/2009/01/shape-of-my-heart.html]

Today in badminton (started this entry some days earlier) I was in a rush to and still had my i-Pod on me when I went and while I was playing. All of a sudden I notice music was playing from it in the middle of badminton and decided to put my headphones on. It was playing this very same Hillsongs song and right at that chorus as well. Then right after it was playing the Remember Me Initial D song.

2010 is the start of a new decade and an opportunity for change (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B1jYllE0T-k ;). This decade was filled with a lot of unexpected events, the death of Michael Jackson and the disaster in Haiti, you name it. It would be safe to assume God also went through heartache of His own both on a global and personal scale.

Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. [Bible]

For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet was without sin. Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. [Hebrews 4]

I am looking forward to be an even bigger part of the changes I know God inevitably wants to see in His world and a significant part of this involves developing my prayer life which is something I found God has been working in me recently through all the heartaches and disappointments as well as unexpected surprises; I have found that going to God in prayer as a "source of strength" can really be life transforming so I have been growing more spiritually in this area than ever before...

Join Him as we seek to make this decade more "Kingdom come" [Matthew 6] than the last.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

The Book of _ _ _

I pictured myself ending the night updating my blog, but I wasn't expecting to update this one, oh well, there's that line again, "It's not about you..." I promise to keep the spoilers down to a minimum, but I also hope this blog entry and movie will inspire you to know more about Jesus whether you'll watch the movie or not. After all, this is the initial-G...C (God Cast...) By the time I'm actually finished this entry and posting it, hopefully you've already went and seen the movie so there isn't too many spoilers for you, but some good old fashioned commentary instead.

Speaking of lines, in the spirit of my reputation of being good at movie quotes, hehe, I will quote a line from someone close to someone dear to me you may not have heard ;)

"The life of Jesus is the life of interruptions...."

But there's something else I learned from the life of Jesus as I have been going through the spiritual exercises I need to for my Spiritual Formation course is that the life of Jesus is also one heavily dependent on God, let's dig into the text a little:

"Then He commanded the multitudes to sit down on the grass. And He took the five loaves and the two fish, and looking up to heaven, He blessed and broke and gave the loaves to the disciples; and the disciples gave to the multitudes."

[The Book of Eli, Matthew 14:19]

Another thing Jesus tends to exemplify in His life I've noticed is that sometimes he has to make people uncomfortable in order to see God.

34 “Do not think that I came to bring peace on earth. I did not come to bring peace but a sword. 35 For I have come to ‘set a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law’; 36 and ‘a man’s enemies will be those of his own household.’[a] 37 He who loves father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me. And he who loves son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me. 38 And he who does not take his cross and follow after Me is not worthy of Me. 39 He who finds his life will lose it, and he who loses his life for My sake will find it." [The Book of Eli, Matthew 10:34-49]

This happened on a more global context in the book of Eli. My first impression upon just watching the movie having only previously seeing the trailer was that this was a "post-apocalyptic" movie. Seems to be a theme of quite a number of movies lately, perhaps no surprise that I tell you a lot of theologians have been predicting the end of the world sometime in this century. The other day when Prophet Nathan and I witnessed the vision of the "orange moon" and I was reminded of the punch line from the movie knowing when Nathan also brought it that it signified the end of the world and I was

Speaking of concepts like one I coined recently from an inspiration from my Old Testament class: Two-Fold Theological meanings. I promise to keep spoilers like this to a minimum, HA reminds me of how upset people were in Wednesday when I brought a friend to small group and people were complaining about spoilers when others were also using movie analogies to prove/express their theological passions. They ought to NEVER read my blog perhaps, haha....

Anyhow, back to "two-fold theological meanings". There is one particular context in the movie of the woman with the shopping cart who uses herself as bait to lure in victims for the bandits "in hiding". To avoid "giving it all away", let's just say that we clearly know (if you've seen it) this woman hasn't completely lost her sense of compassion. But at the same time, she reminds me of the prostitute brought up by one of the Urbana 2009 speakers, who was struggling with becoming a Christian. The story there was that she also had to raise money to support her child and did not believe she could do that if she were to become a Christian and give up "selling her body".

Likewise, the "shopping cart-bait-woman" also felt lost and trapped when she was no longer able to continue working for her original bunch of bandits. Or perhaps she has had multiple groups of employers who also treated her as property the way a "pimp" would prior to that, but it is uncertain. This reminds me of a point my Systematic Theology professor made we should never pass judgment (Matthew 7) on someone solely based on the AMOUNT they give/tithe. Because often we don't know the whole story, for example, there are many people even here in North America who either illegally employed or at least have some degree of ethical concern(s) with their jobs at one point or the other. And there are many things you would be surprised OHIP or other government issued health-coverages don't cover, take for example you may not know, that the last time I had to send for an ambulance, the government charged me $40, and that was then, fortunately at the time, the student medical insurance I was under was able to reimburse this amount. The bottom line is, only God truly has the right to judge anyone, we don't even have the right to judge ourselves.

One point that was also brought up at my last Spiritual Formation class was that sometimes God can speak through coincidences, but He doesn't always and that isn't the only way God can speak.

I'm going to paraphrase a quote from PF:

"Some people are too busy looking at their coincidences, that they don't see God..."

At the same time, I would like to believe God has been gracious enough to me to match what a Christian friend once pointed out, my gift of observation with also the key I brought up recently also: "discernment". Turns out the passage I was thinking about from "James"... as LF might say: what the hey...

If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him. [The Book of Eli, James 1:5]

Take for example, the other day where I stumbled across some pretty disturbing accusations on both a website that claims to be from a church/minister of some sort and also on YouTube that implicates "Lt. Swift" sings for Satan... I, NOT being the person who jumps to conclusions, even in the face of "coincidences" was initially planning to do a "research project" on this prior to the start of the school year, but unfortunately was not able to get to the *seminary* library that particular Thursday for the original intended purpose. My point here is you may not know the whole story, there is a lot more depth to my spiritual discernment than just looking at coincidences, even though at times I find spiritual "joy" in seeing God work through coincidences too... But as I mentioned in my other entries, God is boundless, so like a RHCBC theme once said: "...expect the extraordinary..." do prepare and know that coincidences are NOT THE ONLY way God can work in people's lives. Ever heard about modern day resurrection stories? I HAVE... In fact, I even read about one in an article by an anonymous writer at *seminary* the other day. Previously in the pulpit, never experienced or know anyone personally, but I accept it "on faith" which is another "cool" thing you'll see if you watch the movie, but my "spoiler-sense" is tingling. My point here is similar to how the bible describes itself as being "living and active" and more than just words on a page (Hebrews 4:12). The true power from the word comes from it being a part of our lived experiences, it is not just an item of worship in itself like the way the Pharisees in Jesus' time handled the word and there is one character in the movie who eventually became a worshiper of just the word as well. The main character, _ _ _ had to figure this out for himself as well in the movie in a real and personal way.

There is one somewhat mandatory spoiler here that I need to mention within the context of this movie, all of the world's bibles have been burned. The remnant is not sure "why", but turns out they may have at least partially blamed Christianity/Religion for the war in the first place. Shouldn't come as a big surprise... People have been killing each other since the dawn of humanity and people have tried to do it under the pretense of doing it in God's name millennia before Christ came down to Earth.

But isn't that how things turn out sometimes? We don't realize the value of something at times till it's gone. I know at least a few Christians right now who don't even read the bible on a regular basis. On the other hand, I read the bible on a daily basis and often read this blog as well. So this kind of is where the connection is, the Word of God is "living and active" (Hebrews 4:12)... it's not just something written in a book. Of course I think the author of the story line of the movie wanted to perhaps indicate that it was more than the bibles that were burned, but also the message and values behind it. Pretty sad to see they blamed the bible somehow perhaps for their devastated world. Even though it was a post-apocalyptic society, the people lived as though they started their society before the laws of the bible even came into place.

"God's Word is consequently not the Bible in and by itself but the correlation of Scripture and Spirit (Barth)." [Donald G. Bloesch, Essentials of Evangelical Theology, pg. 53]

"Do not seek the Spirit through solitude or through prayer, but read Scripture. When a man feels that what he is reading is pleasing to him, let him give thanks; for these are the first fruits of the Spirit." [Martin Luther, Luther's Works, vol.29, pg. 83]

One of the admirable things about _ _ _ is even though _ _ _ was faced with a lot of difficulty he still "stay(ed) the course" on where God wanted him to go. Sometimes we hit that snag on the wall ourselves at times, we get into situations where we often are asking ourselves, God why me? Perhaps we've been in a "Christian comfort zone" for too long that we begin to think that God only loves us when he "blesses" us or we expect that he will "bless" us because he loves us. Due to our sinful outlook on things (John 9), we often as my systematic theology professor would put it have the wrong conception of what is a blessing and a curse. The example he gave was a church who said that God blessed them with three hundred thousand dollars and then they came up with three hundred thousand different ideas on what to do with that money. This is something the disciples of Jesus inevitably had to learn the hard way. The followed Jesus at first while witnessing Jesus do all these miracles and healing people only to eventually end up watching their savior be tried and then hung on a cross which caused them to initially scatter (Matthew 26:33-35, Luke 22:31-33, Matthew 26:56). Or maybe you have been preached a gospel where you were told God wants to give you blessings, that God will give your hearts' desire (Psalms 37:4). But what if God doesn't? Where will you turn to then? Just like Paul who prayed God would take away the "thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan" (2 Cor 12:7-9). Sometimes as another Pastor put it, God needs us to "suffer well" in order to truly develop the character he wants us to have.

Our lives are
not always filled with
joy,
happiness and
strength.

We know brokenness and pain, alienation and confusion, doubt and the absence of God. When we feel God has abandoned us we easily identity with the words of Jesus as he was dying on the cross "my God, my God, why have you forsaken me?" (Ps.22:2). This is the Prayer of Lament!

[David Sherbino, re: connect. Spiritual Exercises to Develop Intimacy with God, pg. 61]

I now move on to as the speaker in Urbana 2009 put it, a "more personal application" of the movie. I finished writing the other entry here in January before this one and I am starting to see now God still has his blessing in the things I had to be called to endure. It is a sad thing that too many people, including some Christians actually have it wrong and either don't believe in God or cease to love and believe in Him when things take a turn for the worse. But I thank God that He is counting me among the faithful and there are things He is allowing me to endure:

Examine yourselves as to whether you are in the faith. Test yourselves. Do you not know yourselves, that Jesus Christ is in you?—unless indeed you are disqualified. But I trust that you will know that we are not disqualified.
Now I pray to God that you do no evil, not that we should appear approved, but that you should do what is honorable, though we may seem disqualified.
[The Book of _ _ _ ]

After watching it, I've also realized that there are no limits to how God may choose to use one's gifts in fulfilling his purposes. There may be many things you currently have in your life that you don't feel are gifts, but you never know when God may call on you to use them in the future. That is one of the highlights of this story. So whatever it is you are talented at or you feel you are not so talented at, remember that just like _ _ _, you may eventually develop gifts that you never know how our Almighty will choose to use you in His divine plan :)

...the next generation

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