Satan returned to Jesus and the Trinity after many years of prowling the earth and contested to the Lord once again... "Have you seen the disharmony among your creation and your followers through the earth? They have fought in wars, they have cheated and stole, disobeyed your oridances, some have even turned from the faith and nobody believes or values the things you hold dear and tell them to value anymore..."
The Lord answered him, "I dare you not to challenge my Kingship, among many of my followers there are many who haven't given up hope on many things I told them to seek me first and that I will grant them what they ask as their loving father."
Satan displayed all the things to Jesus and the Trinity all the things that could break God's heart, broken families, disrepect for the Father's creations, a lack of respect for the earth, idoltarers, marital unfaithfulness, abuse and all sorts of less than ideal stewardship for all the Father had entrusted to their care. "How can you say they still value you when this is what they have done with your gifts?"
The Lord once again decided to find someone he hoped could remain faithful to the call of all mankind and answered: "Have you considered my child K? His father has been emotionally and physically absent in this family and marriage pretty much after the first few years of their union. His mother has had a few miscarriages and finally after he is the first born and he has no father to turn to he has chosen to give his heart to God and acknowledge God as the father..."
Satan rebutted, "So you really think this childlike faith is enough? He hasn't even called on the name Jesus yet at this point. His mind is still not made up on what God is really like? What makes you think he will even survive, let alone do other things in life, like find a wife like you wrote in Proverbs, forever worship and continue to give his heart over to you?"
In addition, Satan pointed out, "Does he not believe in God because up to this point, everything somehow through the hard work and labour of others on their accord it has been provided? His family is wealthy on both sides, yes in that generation most of those with a full time job can pay off their entire home in about 10 years salary or less. But see this... he is your prince divided. Some of the members of his dad's family do pledge their allegience to Jesus, but the rest, some are buddhist and many on his mothers' side do not believe you exist at all."
The Lord answered: "I may not have full unadultered control over all those details in each step of his life, but nonetheless, I AM the Lord. You think you can get between my relationship with all mankind and my love for humanity by challenging their faith in me through the aforementioned things? I dare you to try as you pointed out in the beginning of this conversation, I have already lost control of many of those details, but I don't think K will give up K's faith."
Satan again answered the Lord, "AND, if you really think that all that is needed is his childlike faith and that one day he will call on the name Jesus, perhaps you will see how much this child of yours will suffer in your name."
As the years went by, K learned more about gifts "The giving of ourselves and what that means
On a dark and cloudy day, a man hung crying in the rainAll because of love, all because of love" [https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/avalon/wearethereason.html]
K too, even with years of developing a stern and disciplined self control over all things including his emotions did over time also find himself unable to stop from "crying". But after finding out and discerning whether Jesus was the one true God in the world and pledging his allegiance in his late teens to Jesus and the Trinity, he struggled. Yes, K struggled, thoughout the years he had both a sense of dillusionment with his faith, so much to the point when God worked in his life, at times people actually thought he was experiencing delusions and had also been put on anti-psychotics he continues to take for over a decade.
