i”Take it back...” ‘I’m glad I found OUAT...’ “...me likely...” [Source Available Upon Request]

A ‘certain narrative’ has come to an end, but like a lot of recent narratives I’ve seen lately, the ending is kind of “open ended” and leaves everyone with a “the story is to be continued” kind of feeling.  As I was telling my fRiend earlier, I didn’t quite like how near the end a lot of tragic things were happening to basically the person who sort of became the or at least one the main “protagonists” in the story and ended up betrayed and in a pretty bad situation/spot in the final season of the storyline.

However, eventually things got to a better spot for this protagonist as it often does for most fictional storylines but at least not too unrealistically ephoric of an ending that the viewers might have found it ‘too cheesy’ perhaps.

I started watching this series in 2012 or maybe 2013, I can’t really remember when it was already not still in its Pilot season showing on live TV.  I eventually did watch it from the beginning and really found the irony in the first/Pilot season has so much significance, even if you already know what some of the story line is like down the road.  It does get a bit repetitive cause there’s always some ‘big villain’ to overcome and somewhat similar to other shows in that way, but overall I enjoyed it and I don’t mind that I don’t have to keep following yet another series in addition to the two main other ones I am following amist my future plans to go back to studying/school... I will miss it though..I really enjoyed the music as well as the theme of always persisting in doing the right thing and never giving up.

(8) When you get that feeling.... you need spiritual healing.... (8)

Apparently, the other day one of my friends I met one time at the joint church events was not familiar with Microsoft Messenger and did not realize that "(8)"s were previously used to get the emoticon of music notes. Anyhow, I don't know if everyone knows which song I'm trying to parody, but I mean it in a very much more Christ centered way. It's been quite interesting to know a lot of people around me recently are being vulnerable and experiencing some struggles and difficulties with life that I too have some experience with as I too know what it's like to experience many degrees of loss on various levels.




Something great and as my Christian counselor put it happened this year (I originally started this entry at the end of 2017), I got to the point where I realized that compared to before, I was not everything I ought to be spiritually and I knew that I could be better in that area.  So I asked God to allow me to experience spirituality and other aspects of life as I had before.  Earlier today I was listening to a audio file MB made about what he deemed to be appropriate persistence in pursing someone romantically.  He did use the word "creepy" multiple times and it reminded me of that song God used to speak to me during that time.  I was downstairs in the PG working on the HP one time and singing other typical 'praise' songs to God.  Then I found myself singing Creep by Radiohead.  I feel the significance of this was it was as if God was telling me He was like a or that 'Creep': "I want you notice... when I'm not around..." [https://genius.com/Radiohead-creep-lyrics] Not that God/Jesus is ever not around but more like even when I thought God was distant, God had always been there and He wanted me ‘to notice’. Also you could say that God is the most ‘persistent lover’ and is always pursuing us even after we may have tried to push Him aside so therefore if anyone could be called ‘Creepy’, that would be Jesus.

Based on the fact that the entry got retracted or drafted by whoever is my 'blog moderator' when I first wrote it initially after having watched the movie with some friends from church, that perhaps it is for the best I don't get too specific into the movie's details.  I shall then therefore refer to that movie as the TR movie.  There was a particular scene in the TR movie where T says he is not ‘as strong’ but instead The Father tells him that he is actually ‘stronger’.  I was at the point in my life where I thought maybe I couldn’t be as strong in my faith and conviction as I was before and I was asking God to make me somewhat closer to the level of faith I once was as well as telling Him I don’t know if I am as strong in my faith as I once was due to my current circumstances and where I was at in my journey in life too with my father passed away but likewise the Father also affirmed me that I was ‘stronger’ actually =)

PS meet_ the Child of God...

AKA 'Time for The Author' AKA ' (8) I'm coming back to the heart of writing... (8)'... Many things happened this week that do give me inspiration from God that I really need to pick up the pace on my book writing, I may not have enough time to cover them all right now, especially since I'll be at my workplace for 9 hours later, but I might add more to this entry later on.

Recently, when I celebrated my friend's Birthday with him, God worked something 'interesting' through my decision not to continue to wear down the expensive tires on mom's vehicle due to the worn front suspension components.  Rear suspension is also leaking and I've no idea about that no-name tire on the back, but anyhow I'm getting off topic.  So while I was waiting for the bus, I over heard some of the discussion between two other individuals and they started talking about people killing other people, particularly in the context of Jihad so I decided to participate a bit and mention also how the people who are participating in 'holy war' do seem to perceive that they are indeed doing 'the right thing'.  The cool thing that happened was me and the guy who didn't hop onto the other bus started to get into a conversation as we were waiting for the express bus to square one.  And at first we were just exchanging ideas about God in general.  Then about 30 seconds in for me, I realized this person was looking to engage me in a conversation about Jesus.  At first I was contemplating just telling him that I'm a Christ follower to 'cut to the chase', but then I decided maybe it would be more fruitful for me to learn about how other people approach this conversation instead and 'just go with it'.  I ended up discovering his heart for the gospel and evangelism and that he also used to attend the same UC&Seminary as me in the past and we ended up having a pretty cool and fruitful conversation. One thing that I will highlight is that we talked about Bruxy's message from last Sunday and how he liked the story, but also I pointed out that though we have some similarities (in our backgrounds), I also come from a slightly different perspective because "I'm not married yet" [Urbana Single in Missions Workshop]

Actually, the age my friend who was celebrating his birthday turns on Sunday, it goes with my original title of the book, but I happen to find if I were title my book as the same title as this blog entry, it just seems to have more intrigue to it.  Also I recognize some incidental irony that is not just KB and BB's 'wedding anniversary', but that 'a K' also shares a birthday with 'the allegorical RacheL' [http://life-of-agent-k.blogspot.ca/2008/12/dark-k.html , http://life-of-agent-k.blogspot.com/2018/05/time-to-wrap-this-up-sheep.html]...