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AKA 'Bat_an Forever' [https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0112462/?ref_=nv_sr_1?ref_=nv_sr_1] A wiser older woman [AJ], once told me once that one way to really appreciate God's work in our lives is to keep a diary.  And while I do also have blogs that are also password protected, I think there was a little something also to the reasoning behind why one year in my Christian softball league, *3* teams exactly wanted to use this verse as their theme verse: Matthew 5:16  In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven. Funny, I wonder if, perhaps with some strong influence of her parent(s), whether this number 3 is also indeed a favourite number of someone I know.  Other than that one entry, which I am kind of hoping not a lot of people found, I have tried my best using initials such as in the above to try to maintain 'anonymity' as much as possible.   I feel one of the biggest lies 'the enemy' wants us to believe is that we are 'small and insignificant', that what we do can't make a difference, kind of like that 'gloomy ending' I recently saw when I finally got a chance to watch The Lego Movie 2.  Another one might be as my TP, BC put it recently is that we are 'alone and isolated'.  Eventually, as anyone who follows or reads this blog will know, after a hiatus of not blogging for a few years, I decided to 'get back in the game' as I've realize that even though I no longer have people commenting on this blog, it does not mean that nobody is ever reading it anymore.  Also I shouldn't be offended that I still don't know who is/are the person or people who commented on my blog a few times starting way back in 2009, but the important thing I gathered from this whole blog experience is remaining anonymous still has its benefits.  Of course it does somewhat feel like I'm all alone in my 'blog universe' at times and nobody will get to know the real me.  I think it has become quite clear to my peers recently that I sometimes really do 'need to be heard', even if the cries sometimes come out in the few hours past midnight.   Today [01/09/2019], I also did something I haven't had a chance to do for a while, part of the reason was because last year I had a fair share of Sunday morning or early afternoon shifts at my HD position as well.  I felt spiritually, curiously, but 'not by sight', lead to visit another church again.  Another reason why I think I put a stop to such an activity is because as I mentioned in another entry on this blog, after the break down of 'the Hope Mobile', I was left with little alternatives but to take the bus for over an hour often in most cases each way to church.  In a way, I could have also tried for the alternative as to when a few times a biked to another nearby church a few of my closer friends also attend, but mom's always pretty paranoid around the idea of my bicycling and it just so happens 'the Hope Mobile' broke down right at the end of summer so it was just out of 'the bike riding season' at the time.  Perhaps I just have bike riding kind of "on the brain" [JH] because some friends of mine and I are planning on this activity tomorrow evening.  I would say that this time, the 'Leading' I got from God to attend this church was also more appropriate for the resulting Message I heard.  In the past, I just get an 'inking' or as 'gut feeling' to go attend a different church and I just go ahead and do it.  But it just so happened, this time around a bunch of events or circumstances the day prior lead me into the circumstance where I wasn't able to feel up for making it to my usual church that morning.  I would go so far to say the experience was 'so good' that on other weeks, due to the later service time of this church compared to my regular church, I have been sometimes late at my own church also do to issues with my bowel control which I have been tested for and thus far neither a cause nor a solution that would have a high chance of success has been put into place.    I continue this post a little later on in the month and since I am going back to the mentality that this blog can kind of be like a ministry, I think I need to 'take a hint' off something I heard recently about how another friend of mine wants to be more diligently and consistent on working on one of his other projects. In spite of potential lack of readership, for some years this blog had become one of the ways I had continually shared about my faith ongoing amidst my busy schedule. Kind of like the topic of sex that has come up in discussion in some of my assignments recently, I wonder exactly how much less “busy” people of the 1st century were and this whole struggle of ‘being too busy to talk about Jesus’ is unlikely to be a ‘new’ one. I thought I had some more thoughts typed up somewhere for this post.  But I can't seem to locate them easily.  When I look at some of the more recent posts of mine, I would say the one thing I may have done which relates to what one Pastoral Counsellor has mentioned right was trying to expand on the possibilities for opportunities that God may give you.  While there are also certain things I don't believe God is going to provide opportunity for and this can go beyond the context of my entries, employment, having children, etc... "I only provide for Mine" [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H7h5BHax06c].  So the way I see it, the only reason why people either remain single or get married is when both parties are submitting to God's plan for their lives.   Similar to the analogy from employment search or 'job hunting' that MB likes to use, I wonder this is a good analogy to my endeavors in that area.  In my society and our ever changing job market, it is not uncommon for people to now use the perspective that a few years at a particular job is considered "a long time".  I wonder if this has an impact on the way people view faith and religion as well. I have been a Christian for around two decades now, perhaps one of the reasons why God chose me is relevant to what I have learned in my cultural society about a lot of younger people nowadays don’t really care much about Christianity anymore. When I reflected about this in a recent assignment, I realized there is some truth to this, at most of the churches I’ve attended recently, the majority of the congregation would not be people my age or younger. Yet you may not get the same demographic walking through a mega mall at a larger city for example. So at the date I post this entry, it would not be unusual to take any two random people off the street under the age of 30 and the likelihood that at least 1 of every 3 people, if not 2, in that demographic, do not attend church on a regular basis. “Church” is quickly becoming the “new marriage”, in the sense that people don’t really want to make time for church amidst the other things they could be doing with their life. Recently, one of my textbooks also talks about the fidelity of marriage in the future if we extend the average life span to 150, but again with a view back on ‘Biblical times’, being married to the same person, even if the sexual fidelity was not there as was in the case of Abraham and Sarah’s and Jacob and Rachel, didn’t seem to be too much of an issue for them, even if the “certificate of divorce” was already present in the first century [Matthew 5:31]. [POST IN PROGRESS] Recently, I’ve noticed I’m using the above ‘tag’ a lot in a number of my recent entries. I had assumed with the majority of my employment opportunities being put on hold in light of the pandemic would give me ample opportunity to catch up on many things. But I realized also there have been many other things I’ve queued up and put on hold that have been piling up. I have also been largely distracted by keeping up with various news regarding the pandemic. Perhaps like that advice or website article I’ve read regarding writing sermons as I need to do for one of my classes suggests, I need to block off certain days beginning tomorrow with a clear focus on what I am planning to accomplish for each of those days. Of course having some flu like symptoms the last two weeks wasn’t at all helpful either I bet.