My heart has been broken... but hopefully "for what breaks Yours..."

I realized it has been a while since I've posted and I feel a bit bad about it. Because I had dedicated this blog to God, it is one medium where I had hoped to use to bring some light to our "broken world". YES we really do live in a broken world and it wasn't till Campus Challenge this year that reminded me just how broken it really is... Haha, it wasn't till then that my driver this year pointed out how SKETCHY the apartment I live in is either! :P

Anyhow, I was watching the end of King Kong earlier today since I was sick in bed and didn't want to sleep right after lunch so I was curious to "see how it ends". I vaguely recall one of the lines might have been used in one of the sermons at CC:

"He was King in his world, but he comes to us a captive..."

Hehe, I probably won't be able to make the connection to Jesus if it wasn't mentioned before... maybe... Also at the very end it's like:

"No, the planes didn't kill him, it was beauty that killed the beast..."

I am reminded of my conviction from the conference, to do what I can, even in my pre-MDiv days to make the world into a better place and negate the fact that I'm only "one man"... like another line in the pilot episode another show I like..."But I'm just one man..." Response->"Your heart will show you the way..." yea yea...

Let me first give you the lyrics from the song I first sung at the MCBCSL praise night and later again at Campus Challenge that is a real tear-jerker not just for me but one of my small group members as well awww....:

[Verse 1]
I see the King of glory
Coming down the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes, the whole earth shakes
I see His love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing, the people sing

[Chorus]
Hosanna, hosanna
Hosanna in the highest (x2)

[Verse 2]
I see a generation
Rising up to take the place
With selfless faith, with selfless faith
I see a near revival
Stirring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees, we're on our knees

[Bridge]
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity

[Chorus]

http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/h/hillsong_united/hosanna.html

The website also has a embedded YouTube video of what I believe is the live Hillsongs concert... It's like hehe, we didn't have that many people at CC2008, but at least we had more asians (than shown in the video at least :P)... I always tell people that CC in a way is almost a mini Urbana because it's 4 days, almost as long as Urbana's five days and we have more people than what one might expect at their church. I guess we tend to spread out more at the conference places it seems like more than we really have... But nonetheless while it may even be a smaller # of Christians than other English congregations, it's larger than the one at LBCM so it seems like more people to me at least...

Anyhow I think the second verse and the bridge is what touches me the most... do we as Christians really live out "selfless faith"? Are we willing to have God "open our eyes to the things unseen" and as a result perhaps it will "break our hearts for what breaks His"?!??! Definetely not an easy conviction to live by... but during the Conference, God opened my eyes to see that I must take the steps to join Him in His work, submit to Him and he showed me just how insignificant my role is compared to His infinite great power and what I do doesn't really matter other than whether I am willing to submit to Him or not... Like our CC theme verse(s): "20Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen." [Ephesians 3:20-21] So hence I need to look less at results/circumstances and MORE towards whether I am SUBMITting to Him or not...

We may very well be God's last generation here on earth as I discussed with my roommate in a God inspired and fueled conversation that lasted till 6AM on the last day... Will we be able to make that difference for God? Bring the world to it's knees and it's glorious biblically predicted end? As per another quote in a show I really like and used to watch:

"But I did get time to think..About us, about the world. Nothing in the world is as
it ought to be. It's harsh, it's cruel. But that's why there's us. Champions. Doesn't matter where we come from, what we've done or suffered, or even if we make a difference. We live as though the world were as it should be, to show it what it can be. You're not a part of that yet, I hope you will be. I love you..."

Our world IS harsh... it IS cruel... it IS as I heard in a recent podcast, "so messed up" and basically "evil"... But as Christians can we be the holy-spirit powered "Champions" for God we're meant to be... Can we "live as though the world were as it should be, to show it what it can be"? God LOVES us... how will we respond? :O We will be able to be a part of all the things God wants to bring to our earth? Part of His "revival"? With "selfless faith... selfless faith..."? Some things I haven't been able to stop thinking about as I find myself perhaps not even as eager to hear back about my application to *seminary* as much as I should be...

Recently some friends and I have been playing Scene It a lot and besides "Love means never having to say you're sorry." I found some other quotes from Love Story I would like to bring in "randomly":

Jennifer Cavalieri: You look stupid and rich.
Oliver Barrett IV: Well, what if I'm smart and poor?
Jennifer Cavalieri: *I'm* smart and poor.
Oliver Barrett IV: Well what makes you so smart?
Jennifer Cavalieri: I wouldn't go out for coffee with you that's what.
Oliver Barrett IV: Well what if I wasn't even gonna ask you to go out for coffee with me?
Jennifer Cavalieri: Well that's what makes you stupid.

Was Jesus Christ "stupid" to come to earth to try to save a doomed, sinful race only to have it result in His own death and even till present day, not everyone has "come to Christ"? Some may think so... And maybe sometimes love can seem illogical and "stupid" to some people, but what Jesus did, He did out of love, for us...:

"15Anyone who hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life in him.

16This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. 17If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him?" [1 John 3:15-17]

Jesus Christ came not only for you and me, but for the worst of sinners, for the theives, the murderers, the mafia, you name it... will we be able to do the same? Maybe not even go to that extreme, will we be able to even attempt to talk to that neighbour of ours who seemingly will never come to Christ? Jesus leaves the fate of our world into our hands because He trusts us, He has Faith in us... what will we make of it?

"Nothing in the world is as it ought to be. It's harsh, it's cruel. But that's why there's us. ... We live as though the world were as it should be, to show it what it can be."