Love hurtS...

I've been able to forget about this issue a lot easier and faster. Truth is my faith in Jesus allows me to know it's either not His timing or not his plan for uS to be together...I wasn't real sure what She saw we had. But to me, I loved her and I wasn't sure if it was God's plan, so I kept praying and asking about it, but I guess I kinda pushed it too much too soon and didn't follow God's timing again... wouldn't be the first time... And eventually I felt so sure She was the right one for me, but now I dunno what to think and my faith is again challenged...Anyhow, now She kinda scared of me and I dunno what to do but just pray. I know I came on too strongly, but sometimes when you're sure of something, you're just sure and you put all your faith in it and you just kinda wanna go for it... But I want to try to express how I feel, I always tell myself I'm quite the poet and chrolographer i.e. song lyrics, I wanna try my hand at that right now. I just want to use normal everyday language first... All I want to say is I don't believe in starting relationships with aquintances either and as a result I've been maybe trying to get to know certain people better a bit too much if you know what I mean... But even though I know you even less than those other girls, sometimes I just get these feelings and even though it seems bad or hard at first, I trust God it's for the best. I guess I can't blame her, these things take experience and a mature mindset. But learning to trst in God through all circumstances, I guess you can't really do that till you start learning how to trust him more and more especially through the tough transitions times in life, like going from highschool to University and University out into the working world, etc... Yes, L, you know what I'm getting at... :P Anyhow onto the artsy way of doing things...

Hard to breathe, feels like floating...
So full of love, my heart's exploding...
Mouth is dry, hands are shaking...
My heart is yours, for the taking...
Acting weird, not myself...
Dancing around, like the Keebler elf...
Finally time, for this poor shlub.
To know how it feels, to fall in lub.
-Adam Sandler's greeting card from the movie Mr. Deeds

Remember Me
artist: Leslie Parrish

remember me

I feel you so close to me
I hope you still think of me
even I know you found another love

you took away my chance to
be with you forever
to be your love and stay together
you gave away the precious love
that we had to somebody else
oh baby I wanna tell you

remember me
remember everything we used to be
can you feel my heart pounding, pounding
will be forever, will you
remember you, remember me
I remember everything we used to be
'cause my blood is still pumping, pumping
will be forever, will you remember me

I need you, but it's o.k.
I know that, I'll find my way
I will begin to find another love

you took away my chance to
be with you forever
to be your love and stay together
you gave away the precious love
that we had to somebody else
oh baby I wanna tell you

remember me
remember everything we used to be
can you feel my heart pounding, pounding
will be forever, will you
remember you, remember me
I remember everything we used to be
'cause my blood is still pumping, pumping
will be forever, will you remember me

I feel you
even I know........

be with you forever
to be your love and stay together
you gave away the precious love
that we had to somebody else
oh baby I wanna tell you

remember me
can you feel my heart pounding, pounding
remember you, remember me
'cause my blood is still pumping, pumping
will be forever, will you remember me....

NOW I WILL ATTEMPT TO WRITE MY OWN MATERIAL
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(going to have to try hard to ignore all those song lyrics and poetry, etc... that I know...)

Hard to describe how I feel...
Having trouble keeping it real...
I know I don't have much money...
But I just feel so lonely...

Even though I don't know you much...
My heart I felt you touch...
I know for sure we are through...
Just remember I loved you...

(Oooo, this is good stuff, I'm going to add more before I switch to song lyric writing...)

I wanted to be your man,
But maybe that wasn't His plan?
I tried to my best to trust...
My faith was weak as rust...

I know I can get over you,
But does God want me to?
Our love helped me repent,
Now I just built the tents.

SONG LYRIC TIME:

Verse 1:
I've been alone for many years,
nobody to lend me an ear,
But my savior alone...
However, it is time I should,
find a helper who will,
help me to build a home...

Chorus:
Nothing in this life last forever...
But I wanted our love to...
Wanted to love you...
Wanted to follow His voice...

Verse 2:
Finding you was a miracle,
Didn't expect to find you,
Someone who could love me...
Maybe you don't know me that well,
But you know that I'm a Christian
Yes my past is ugly...

Verse 3:
(UNFINISHED, yes another unfinished blog, but that's the way I am!)