'Now these *3* remain'...(original title: "...glowing mushroom...")

Recently I haven’t had a lot of time to keep updated on my blogS :P, too much going on with trying to change my current employment situation in addition to trying to get myself back into 'work-study-mode' for school.  I have also recently been encouraged to also go back to old fashioned pen and paper diaries again.  I suppose those can contain the really really "beneath the surface" parts of the 'life-of-agent-k'. 

I have been leading a busy life as of late that is for sure, but 'that's how I am'.  Always trying to use 'busyness' to avoid dealing with the critical issues of life.  A friend of mine suggested recently that my lack of independence has a very strong co-relation to my self esteem issues.  So due to trying to make use of the few 'quite waking hours' I get in a week while I need to drive as that is often the few moments I get to be truly 'alone' (aside from Jesus being present) in a given week and trying to get back into my previous patterns of "faith drive"s, which is also what gave the first long-term vehicle I used to drive the nickname 'faith-mobile' in the first place.  Ironically, the steady increase of 'absurd, aggressive and/or dangerous drivers' I need to 'watch out for' out there kind of parallels the 'extra distractions' life is bringing in the form of work, school and what not, other circumstances for example that keep me from what my Teaching pastor recently refers to as a 'effective meditative state/practice' in my spiritual life as per being able to have that 'calmness' in my 'driving life'. 

I had a dream almost a decade ago now that perhaps God was also speaking a context of I need to consider the two sedans we used to own prior to the SUV as 'one vehicle', so I will reference that as the "faith-mobile" era.  And then the brief period of having the SUV, as I likely mentioned in other blog entries before, due to it being a larger, 'family sized vehicle' with 'room to grow', it brought back some renewed sense of hope like the premise of Star Wars episode 4 in terms of 'I hope to drive my kids in this vehicle someday', though that might still be possible as I can get into later, but now need to summarize what potentially can justify naming the current vehicle the other term in the bible, which to be honest at first seemed very challenging to do so based on the very beat up condition we the vehicle was when we originally obtained it. 

In a way when I 'think about it first' a little now, the original title of "glowing mushroom" does kind of still make sense for the title of this blog.  As per actual effect of the "glowing mushroom" in Mario Kart, it gives the user/kart a huge quick 'speed boost' which aside from it being part of the lyric of the Sam Hart original, does kind of feel like where my life is at right now, a 'fast-forwarding' mode.  Which is perhaps what JG was perhaps alluding to a bit the last time we had an extended conversation that she thought maybe I'm trying to 'rush into a lot of things at once', something along those lines I guess.  Although, my other friend, EW, kind of sees things as quite the opposite, and he likely thinks a "glowing mushroom", more like the context in the song, is exactly what is needed for me, first, I'll quote the lyrics of that part of the song:

The blue shell is coming
So I'll go ahead
If you hang behind
It'll hit me instead
But never look back
Cause I'm down but not dead
I'll catch up to you

Bridge:
Don't worry about
Bowser or DK
Just Eat this glowing mushroom
And they'll all fade away

[https://genius.com/Sam-hart-mario-kart-love-song-lyrics]

In the real game play of the Mario Kart game, being hit by a blue shell often brings you from first/pole position to further behind the lead cause it 'temporarily disables' your kart/vehicle and then it gives the racers behind a golden opportunity to catch up, even the more devious ones that normally have slower acceleration and can be more depend on such variables to win a race like "Bowser or DK" but the "golden mushroom" actually boosts both your acceleration and top speed momentarily which can allow a person to 'get back to the lead'.  In many ways, having a vehicle again opens up more doors in terms of accessibility of different jobs that normally can be either extremely difficult or nearly impossible to access easily by transit as well as get me to other places like church quicker, so it very much aside from potentially being what I gathered tonight God might be saying is the 'love mobile' or in other words, 'the missionary mobile' (because mission work ought to be done with love) as well as allowing me to reach more places to be in fellowship with other believers, it does open more doors that way that even though I likely kind of fulfilled the "seven year sabbath" prophecy I was given when I broke my 'ring finger' years ago, I am now able to swing back into the 2 Timothy 4 for Him...

(and as for the 'ring finger' follow up story, as BC likes to put it, 'well that's another entry...')