(8) When you get that feeling.... you need spiritual healing.... (8)

Apparently, the other day one of my friends I met one time at the joint church events was not familiar with Microsoft Messenger and did not realize that "(8)"s were previously used to get the emoticon of music notes. Anyhow, I don't know if everyone knows which song I'm trying to parody, but I mean it in a very much more Christ centered way. It's been quite interesting to know a lot of people around me recently are being vulnerable and experiencing some struggles and difficulties with life that I too have some experience with as I too know what it's like to experience many degrees of loss on various levels.




Something great and as my Christian counselor put it happened this year (I originally started this entry at the end of 2017), I got to the point where I realized that compared to before, I was not everything I ought to be spiritually and I knew that I could be better in that area.  So I asked God to allow me to experience spirituality and other aspects of life as I had before.  Earlier today I was listening to a audio file MB made about what he deemed to be appropriate persistence in pursing someone romantically.  He did use the word "creepy" multiple times and it reminded me of that song God used to speak to me during that time.  I was downstairs in the PG working on the HP one time and singing other typical 'praise' songs to God.  Then I found myself singing Creep by Radiohead.  I feel the significance of this was it was as if God was telling me He was like a or that 'Creep': "I want you notice... when I'm not around..." [https://genius.com/Radiohead-creep-lyrics] Not that God/Jesus is ever not around but more like even when I thought God was distant, God had always been there and He wanted me ‘to notice’. Also you could say that God is the most ‘persistent lover’ and is always pursuing us even after we may have tried to push Him aside so therefore if anyone could be called ‘Creepy’, that would be Jesus.

Based on the fact that the entry got retracted or drafted by whoever is my 'blog moderator' when I first wrote it initially after having watched the movie with some friends from church, that perhaps it is for the best I don't get too specific into the movie's details.  I shall then therefore refer to that movie as the TR movie.  There was a particular scene in the TR movie where T says he is not ‘as strong’ but instead The Father tells him that he is actually ‘stronger’.  I was at the point in my life where I thought maybe I couldn’t be as strong in my faith and conviction as I was before and I was asking God to make me somewhat closer to the level of faith I once was as well as telling Him I don’t know if I am as strong in my faith as I once was due to my current circumstances and where I was at in my journey in life too with my father passed away but likewise the Father also affirmed me that I was ‘stronger’ actually =)