2008 Prayer Requests/Aspirations/Goals AKA "I will become a better K..." [http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0980970/?ref_=nv_sr_1]

Well the very first prayer request is that I will continue to still yet devote more of my heart to prayer in light of the fact I intend to go back to working full time this year even though I'm still prayerfully seeking and discerning what God could have that look like for me...

Recently a guest speaker pointed out and reminded us of the 'put oil on your head so people do not know you are fasting mentality' [Matthew 6:16-18] in terms of online platforms of showing others the results of the fruits what we do for the Lord. I think there definitely is some truth to that, but it also needs to be balanced with the fact that sometimes people can also be encouraged by what God has done in other people's lives. As well, the bible itself is one such instance of that and as Paul puts it in 2 Corinthians 3:2, we do at times need to continue to see how God works in other people's lives in order to see the 'current context' in which God's doctrines apply in modern day living as God doesn't just speak through a hard copy text, not that God cannot speak through hard or soft copy words of course....But speaking of the irony of first full names sometimes... turns out when my vehicle completely collapsed last night, due to the lack of visibility, I didn't realize I had pulled into a residential passage way and the home owner, his name turns out to be Jacob, ended up very frustrated and irritated over the entire situation because of the inconvenience blocking his driveway caused. Now that the vehicle is finally back in our possession, quite honestly its mechanical state may not be as serious as I think it is, though I'm not too sure as I'm not really good with diagnosing things, it's just really cold at the moment for me to work on it plus I'm already kind of in a very frustrated mood with it this morning after what happened last night and with the whole situation of putting in a lot of work into it over the last 2 months and only getting about 2 weeks of very sparingly usage of it before it broke down yet again. However, I need to stop thinking about the last 20 hours mindset that has escalated from having to involve my immediate/biological family in the situation and remember the 20 minute mindset that I had at the time it broke down and continue to be thankful and rest in the experiences it has allowed me to have in the last 2 weeks (and the greater context of the 2 months also) in terms of how God has blessed me and taught me through the entire experience. I definitely would NOT trade the life transforming experiences of the last 2 months for anything! The situation at home is constantly stressful unfortunately so it is nothing like just taking a moment or two days to mostly "rest" in the First Aid Room when people don't need first aid as it was that year I was volunteering at Missions Fest. 

And through only using initials in my blog (the majority of the time) or more indirect pronouns like Pastor or friend, it is my original intention of this blog to help others see Christ working without potentially causing people to be tempted to worship creations rather than the creator [Romans 1:25]. Anyways, once again I find myself without a working vehicle, but as my Pastor might put it yet again. "It is not the vehicle that you love..." And as well it shouldn't be, but it should be the love of Christ that both compels and motivates us to continue using everything we have, not just material possessions; our mental and physical capacities, our life experiences, and upmost our God given capacity to love like Christ to serve and bless others. :)

I also intend to use my newly healed state to find ways to improve my financial situation through more paid employment if possible. But even if my employment search doesn't lead to a job right away or maybe the job would actually make my financial situation more difficult (this can happen, but a little personal to explain over a public blog), I still want to continue to find ways to as my friend JH put it "continue the momentum" of being more humble and sacrificial rather than self-serving in how I spend time and other resources I have immediately available to me.

 Since I didn't have much time to finish off year 7 in the http://life-of-agent-k.blogspot.ca/2017/11/im-like-vault-baby-locked-down-alex.html post, I might as well just tie it in here since 2017 is still not too far in the past YET... 2017 did indeed start off in a way that could have been more productive as my mother put it, not just on a professional level, but definitely on a spiritual level as well. 2017 also helped me to be more objective to discern that many of the things that I ended up taking a break from over the years was perhaps also part of God's plan to see what really matters in life is ultimately loving Jesus foremost will always be essential in growing, serving, trusting and utmost, as per 1 Corinthians 13, loving as well. It also helped me to regain a greater appreciation of my home town here in Mississauga. Even though a lot of my earlier life here was filled with hurtful experiences, I've now overcome them so maybe God's was speaking to me through my financial circumstances, you really shouldn't leave this place, at least not until I call you elsewhere... And I'm hoping now that I realize this, He will soon now finally give me the additional financial support I have been praying for and as I expressed to R's family, full time work would likely also be a way of giving me emotionally healthy separation from my mother in my day to day... Interesting to see if this initial will be the 'alpha and the omega' and I still continue to seek God's guidance and more importantly providence and assistance in the area...

I wonder if it is https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JLf9q36UsBk for me to go back to using pronouns like 'heR' and etc now without confusing people, but I now need to start another part of my day, so no more on that subject for the moment...