i-DAWN: (8) I'm sorry you can't have PERFECT... (8)

*G*: Princess or no Princess does not change your Prince Kaspian mission...

"You still have to fulfill your duties..."

(8) I've tried to resist, try to run from His kiss... but I know I know... (8)

As much as I want to, I can't fight the DAWN of God's reality and as much as I had planned to sleep earlier, He showed me tonight the confirmation of the decision I had to make soon by tomorrow morning.

Instead of TYPING that other entry I thought God wanted me to finish, I found myself READING tonight instead...

Last line of * RH... CCC The pact-convenant.txt * completes the confirmation as tough of a decision it is to make, it is the one I ought to make.

Just because _ _ _ and I have issues doesn't mean I've LOST who I am... after all, I cannot lose something which is secured in Jesus Christ. [Luke 15]

*G*: "If you find a perfect church, don't join it, because if you join it, you will make it imperfect..."

i-Class: In Hebrew repetition is used for emphasis... ("oh BURN..." Oh NO you can't ...you have to ACCEPT REALITY)

God has very firmly answered my question tonight as to (8) Should I stay or should I go... (8) STAY!

K's Shadow: You know that other church is pretty good too... (let me get one thing straight, there's NOTHING WRONG with going to THAT church, it's just that it may not be God's church for me....)

You made a PACT Prince Kaspian... Even if it means God is using His OWN Prophecy against you... But the one written with your "own hand" Mr. 1 Corinthians 7... The one that withstood the "Spiritual Revision" you mentioned.

(8) Now I can tell you why... (8) [the same friend also text messaged me a one word message: "Why?"]

For Jesus is why you must die... not a physical death to yourself... not an obligation death to a church... but a death of giving up your own life, so you find that you...

(8) ...might truly live... (8) [see verses pasted below]

"These things don't just happen you know..." [Sweet Home Mississauga]

Matthew 10:39
Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.

Matthew 16:25
For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it.

Luke 9:24
For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it.

Luke 17:33
Whoever tries to keep his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life will preserve it.

It is of benefit for most to read the whole chapters where these verses are found, but I did it as the above to show the Hebraic repetition aforementioned. Being called by God to experience another church for the last feel weeks, the Lord truly shed the light on my underlying issue, especially during that last sermon in the series at that church about church leaders mentioned in my last entry. While I was there, I noticed, hey I like these sermons, I like the setup, I like the people there too, it was like heaven on earth, the "PERFECT CHURCH" if you will.

However, "It's not about you" like my Christian friend text messaged to me the very same morning. I was like WHOA... does he know that I am awake 6AM this morning listening to the sermon with that screen shot? Perhaps not, but GOD knows. From the recollection of Urbana 2006 and Rick Warren's presence there and book, to the very spiritually profound experience I had at the MCBCSL Praise Night on May 1st, 2009 with the theme "It's not about me" and now these visits to Meeting House, I realized, HEY... God you're trying to tell me something here! "Stop looking at how *I AM* can help you with YOUR needs... look at how you can help Me with Mine..."

7Jesus replied, "You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand."

8"No," said Peter, "you shall never wash my feet."
Jesus answered, "Unless I wash you, you have no part with me."

9"Then, Lord," Simon Peter replied, "not just my feet but my hands and my head as well!"

10Jesus answered, "A person who has had a bath needs only to wash his feet; his whole body is clean. And you are clean, though not every one of you." 11For he knew who was going to betray him, and that was why he said not every one was clean.

12When he had finished washing their feet, he put on his clothes and returned to his place. "Do you understand what I have done for you?" he asked them. 13"You call me 'Teacher' and 'Lord,' and rightly so, for that is what I am. 14Now that I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also should wash one another's feet. 15I have set you an example that you should do as I have done for you. 16I tell you the truth, no servant is greater than his master, nor is a messenger greater than the one who sent him. 17Now that you know these things, you will be blessed if you do them. [John 13:7-16]

While to me, Meeting House may seem like the PERFECT church, RHCBC remains a "perfectly good one". The way the congregants at Meeting House conduct themselves truly reminds me of one thing, while we are gathered as one body [1 Corinthians 12], we don't need to be in any particular "role" to help others. Just by being honest and transparent, they have already helped me so much in the same attitude of John 13 above.

Allow me to set the context a bit more for those who may not have thought so much about the (seemingly minor) details of this event. Back in those days, the majority of people wore sandals and also relied on walking as a primary form of transportation. Furthermore, the environment they walked was very unlike our modern sidewalks and pavement and they often walked on dirt roads and I guess for those of you who are around in the GTA... imagine trying to walk around "Chinatown" in your bare feet. Ya... Not pleasant. So since people had dusty, dirty feet the majority of the time, it was customary for people to just leave their feet dirty and not bother washing them. A present day equivalent is like when a friend would tell you not to bother washing the car if it was going to rain the next day and he knows you'll be out driving anyhow. This could explain why in other passages, Jesus tells us disciples to "shake the dust off your feet" (Matthew 10:14, Mark 6:11, Luke 9:5) as a gesture of being spiteful towards those who don't welcome the disciples on their ambassadorship.

There are instances though in Judaism religious custom though where feet washing is also done before receiving priestly blessing [http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ritual_washing_in_Judaism], and this might be something Jesus was trying to hint at before communion to show that it was a form of blessing He was about to bestow upon them. But I think even in these cases it was done by the individual and not the priest, someone correct me if I am wrong. He seems to hint at this in John 13:7 "You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand."

My point of all this, is Jesus' act of washing his disciples' feet is very much like if you were to step into someone's house and the host would come up to you and say: "Oh... let me take off your shoes for you..." There are some exceptions were elderly have trouble bending down to get them on/off, but the majority of us would naturally think and/or say: "Oh... you don't have to do that..." The whole point of all this is that no act is nor should be considered "too small". Even something like saying "hi" to somebody at church could go a long way for someone who really needed that greeting. No act is too small, nor any act will go unrewarded or if necessary punished. (Ezekiel 24:14; 36:19, Matthew 6:4; 6:6; 6:18; 1 Corinthians 4:5, Revelation 20:12-13) So before I change to a more Christmas theme, I'm gonna first quote the original version of Prince Caspian's identity discovery:

Caspian: Then I have failed you.
Doctor Cornelius: Everything I told you, everything I didn‟t… It was only because I believe in you. You have a chance to become the most noble contradiction in history: The Telmarine who saved Narnia.

“For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.”- Isaiah 9:6

Last year I also wrote 3 entries in December and mentioned about the Christmas I had that year. Particularly, the last entry I wrote that year focused around Christmas. The Christmas celebrations are over and done with and this will be the last entry for this year also as I am heading up to Urbana 2009 tomorrow. It's so unbelievable that 3 years have gone by already since I also mentioned Urbana 2006 in that entry [http://life-of-agent-k.blogspot.com/2008/12/yes-lord-yes-lord-yes-yes-lord.html].

http://life-of-agent-k.blogspot.com/2008/12/yes-lord-yes-lord-yes-yes-lord.html

"We all have to do our parts..." [http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0178145/]

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H: "Are you in the middle of exams right now?"

Made it all the more harder to stop the revelations in the middle of my History II exam man!!!
[Wouldn't you like to know :P]
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Including The Call:

“You may find RH*C*BC a MUCH MORE SALVAGE PLACE THAN YOU REMEMBERED... I spelled it GO-zalez?!?!... ARGH... no wonder I need an editor and make too many grammer mistakes...”

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???: You have the opportunity to become the greatest contradiction in history... the fatherless boy from the Mississauga neighbourHOOD who goes UPTOWN to bring about the reformation of their spirituality...

PF: "Our English congregation can be so much more..."

PK: "Amen to that..."

God you made it clear, I am here to stay even if you (8) break my heart for what breaks yours... (8)...