The Mr. of a great Mr....

I remember reading this book from the Chicken Soup series and I think it was "Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soup". I do hope to read "Chicken Soup for the Christian Soul" someday ;) Anyhow the story was called "The Miss of a great Miss" and it was a story about how this guy wanted this girl so badly, but he always thought there was no way he was good enough for a girl like her. So he never asked her out, later on her friend tells him "She got over you..." and how he was always leading her on, but it never happened. So he regrets cause something could have happened.

Last night we had a farewell Karaoke party for my good friend "JChao" as we like to call him. A.K.A. Yao Ming LOL... but we also had a time of sharing about our times and memories of Jason, even his parents shared. I never really did get up and share about him, but "daughter" did do a good sharing. He really is full of love and might I add joy too I believe. I remember my best times with J is when we're joking around and having so much fun. We've also had some very good Spiritual discussions together. J, you will definetly be missed, especially since you are on my mailing list and everything! Edmonton seems so far away... I wonder if the Accord can even handle such a distance... But as a fellowship, we may decide to rent a bus to go there :P

Here is a song a guy sang during the sharing time:

Bill Withers - Lean on Me
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Sometimes in our lives we all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
That you don't let show

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

If there is a load you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me

So just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on

Lean on me when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Lean on me...

This was the song I dedicated and sang to J:

Artist: Bette Midler Lyrics
Song: Wind Beneath My Wings Lyrics

Oh, oh, oh, oh -
It must have been cold there in my shadow,
to never have sunlight on your face.
You were content to let me shine, that's your way.
You always walked a step behind.

So I was the one with all the glory,
while you were the one with all the strain.
A beautiful face without a name for so long.
A beautiful smile to hide the pain.

Did you ever know that you're my hero,
and everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.

It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
but I've got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it.
I would be nothing without you.

Did you ever know that you're my hero?
You're everything I wish I could be.
I could fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.

Did I ever tell you you're my hero?
You're everything, everything I wish I could be.
Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

Oh, the wind beneath my wings.
You, you, you, you are the wind beneath my wings.
Fly, fly, fly away. You let me fly so high.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.

Fly, fly, fly high against the sky,
so high I almost touch the sky.
Thank you, thank you,
thank God for you, the wind beneath my wings

I also sung some of "Thank God I found you" with Cat, I haven't sung that song in a long long time so I forgot most of the words except for the chorus and unfortuanetly for some reason the video did not have the words...


Artist: Mariah Carey Lyrics
Song: Thank God I Found You Lyrics

(Mariah)
I would give up everything
Before I'd separate myself from you
After so much suffering
I've finally found a man that's true
I was all by myself for the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heart it would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life

(Chorus - all)

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful
I found you

(Joe)
I would give you everything
There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do
To ensure your happiness
I'll cherish every part of you
Because without you beside me I can't survive
I don't wanna try
If you're keeping me warm each and every night
I'll be all right
Cause I need you in my life

(Chorus - all)

Thank God I found you (I'm begging you)
I was lost without you (so lost without you)
My every wish and every dream (every dream, every dream)
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight (brought the sunlight)
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful
I found you

-Bridge- (Mariah & Joe)

See I was so desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess it shows
that we were destined to shine
After the rain to appreciate
And care for what we have
And I'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way

(Chorus - all)

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you (lost without you baby)
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life (whole life)
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Sweet baby I'm so thankful
I found you

(Chorus - all)
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby I'm so thankful
I found you

(Mariah)

I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby I'm so thankful I found you

I also helped one of J's friends which I didn't know sing this classic:


Artist: Michael Learns To Rock Lyrics
Song: That's Why (You Go Away) Lyrics

Baby want you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up
Now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

* CHORUS : I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feelings so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

* REPEAT CHORUS

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There is so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore

* REPEAT CHORUS

But I think maybe we had the most fun singing this one... :P

Artist: Celine Dion Lyrics
Song: My Heart Will Go On Lyrics

Every night in my dreams
I see you. I feel you.
That is how I know you go on.

Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on.

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never go till we're one

Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

There is some love that will not
go away

You're here, there's nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on


Mainly because it blew everyone's voices. :P Including mine and Shannon's whom I shared a mic with. Although I probably sounded horrible being beside V the next day despite my usual star singing :P, I feel bad I caused Shannon to lose her voice by picking this song cause she was singspiration/worship leading for her church the next day. Opps... my bad, I guess you could say the song was a bit too high for us. I could probably handle it, if I didn't have to sing "Wind beneath my wings" not too long before, which is pretty high at the end also. Good thing I decided not to pick 100 years also, I had heard it at the evangelistical meeting we had the night before, but it had nothing to do with Jason leaving really...

Ai.... JChao, you definetly will be missed! I remember first meeting J during my and I think our first year at CCF, he was a bit behind educationally wise, but not too much in age, I think he's still younger though, not 100% sure :P Anyhow, I remember how this guy was always lively, he especially liked to eat, which is cool, cause I like to eat too. But I'll always remember those Friday afternoons after small group walking all the way to Chinatown; J especially liked to eat Pho, especially with Hot Sauce! And he would always sweat while eating it, but it was worth it for all those "treasures" he would find in the bowl :P J is also very talkative, which works for me also since I also am, but actually when J talks, I'm usually not talking :P

And J is also very loving, my daughter is right! This is probably what I and others will remember most about him. He taught us that hugging is healthy and he is right! But it may be a while before I will get the chance to hug him again... People in my church don't seem to believe in hugs, not even my good friend felt really enthuasastic about a hug even though I haven't seen him for so long because he was in HK. So once I leave CCF, I guess that part of my balanced healthy lifestyle will go with them. J was always a good friend of mine and I used to see him several times a week back when we still both in school, now I'll be lucky to see him several times a year... :(

This is the song I was trying to sing for J when I selected it...


Artist: Trisha Yearwood Lyrics
Song: How Do I Live Without You Lyrics

How do I
Get through one night without you
If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be?
Oh I need you in my arms
Need you to hold
Your my world my heart my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you'd take away everything good in my Life.

And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I
How do I
O how do I live?.

Without you
There'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There would be no world left for me
And I
Baby I don't know what I would do
I would be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in My life

And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever ever survive?
How do I
How do I
O how do I live?...

Please tell me baby..

How do I go on?
If you ever leave
Well baby you would take away everything
Need you with me
Baby don't you know your everything good in My life

And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I
How do I
O how do I live

How do I live without you
How do I live without you baby.......
How do I live....

But even though the book at the Karaoke place had the right title, it totally played the WRONG song, which actually goes by a different title and instead I got this one...

Artist: Michael Bolton Lyrics
Song: How Am I Supposed To Live Without You Lyrics

I could hardly believe it
When I heard the news today
I had to come and get it straight from you
They said you were leavin'
Someone swept you heart away
From the look upon your face I see it's true
So tell me all about it, tell me 'bout the plans you're makin'
Then tell me one thing more before I go

Tell me how am I supposed to live without you
Now that I've been lovin' you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
How am I supposed to carry on
When all that I've been livin' for is gone

I didn't come here for cryin'
Didn't come here to breakdown
It's just a dream of mine is coming to an end
An how can I blame you
When I built my world around
The hope that someday we'd be so much more than friends
And I don't wanna know the price I'm gonna pay for dreaming
When even now it's more than I can take

And I don't wanna face the price I'm gonna pay for dreaming
Now that your dream has come true



Which is kinda good too I suppose. Other people also sung some other sappy songs to express their feelings toward's J's leaving, you will be missed! Well this entry is getting long and it's getting late so I'm going to try to call it a night...