[say-yun] relationships...?

Guess it's another Valentine's day alone. I hate this dreaded day. Especially the stupid ads that tell me what I can buy for my special someone which I currently don't have. I dun even remember or care about the history of this day, but it all just seems like another occasion for capitalists to try to make more $! Well I've decided to post an entry about my observations of relationships and try to tie in my explaination why seeing couples makes me sick, etc...

I'm now starting to think there is 4 types of relationships or should I say 4-[yun](Cantonese)/[yin](Mandarin) (as in "dead man/human") relationships LOL :P...

It kinda relates to the speaker's sermon during our LBCM volunteers retreat where the speaker talked about "idealistic" and "realistic". I propose a theory there are kinda like 4 types of relationships. Secular idealistic, or perhaps one would say "fantasy". Secular realistic, basically real secular relationships. Christian realistic and Christian idealistic.

LL (Princess), this might be the entry you are waiting for... I'm actually finishing this entry on February 23rd, 2006.

LOL, now it's February 27th... I've just been busy and I dun even know if I'll finish this today since I gotta do other stuff too.

(Yes, posting yet another unfinished entry, I'll try to finish it though...)

Ok, it's time to finish it off! So I guess I should first explain to LL and the others just why it iS that I can't stand seeing people in relationships express their happiness, especially in physical form. I kinda already touched on it in some of my other entrieS and I want to put it to rest once and for all and stop talking about it like I promiSed.

Well I would think the answer is pretty obvious. Oh maybe not! *raise eyebrow* To be honest I really don't know if the root cauSe of the problem I pin-pointed is in fact "the" cause.

I'm continuing this post today, even though it's way past the day I started it. I guess the reason why I'm going to continue it is because seeing couples made me cry again today. I really don't think blogging about it will take it off my mind, but it might force me to think about it more. Can't say if it's a good or bad thing, it might help me find the root cause of the problem. However, I guess the questions is will I ever find the root cause and even if I do? Would finding out even help or just make things worse?

Anyhow, I don't plan to spend too much time finishing this post. And there really isn't much I can blog or "say". Like for example, will mentioning which couples I saw in particular really do anything? Afterall, I don't only feel that way when I see those couples, I feel that way when I see couples period. Although perhaps there might be a subconcious psychological link when seeing "asian" couples though since She is aSian... I dunno...

Oh, ya, I forgot the primary purpose of this entry, that I'm going to write about my Christian viewpoint on relationships. Well I'll save that for another day, so perhaps I should change the name of this post. Or actually the name is quite appropriate, I'll just post another entry later that doesn't speak so negatively about relationships since that won't be my personal standpoint or opinion on relationships but rather a collective knowledge of my experience with seeing people in relationships whether real or fictional ones in the past, prior to my cold-turkeying of observing relationships or couples. And of course tie in the reading I've done and counselling I've received concerning relationships.

Ok, to end off, I'll state the two standing theories as to why I MIGHT feel the way I do whenever I see couples. Actually this post is long overdue when I planned to post it and the date is now March 28th. However, I still can't really pinpoint a distinct reason why I can't stand the sight of other people together. So why guess, I'm just going to post this entry and be done with it. Princess LL, just get over the fact that I can't stand seeing anyone together, it's no loss to you or anyone else who is dating/married...