My calling part 1...

People tell me I preoccupy myself with the whole relationships issue, SO not true, in fact it's the opposite, I'm taking EXTREME measures to avoiding thinking about it, I just didn't want to leave certain important entries half finished, but in interest of timing and proving I'm really trying my best to get the iSsue off my mind..

To save typing FTM->Full Time Ministry

As you already know, I've been gradually seeking out my calling from God for at least 6 or 7 years now. So in maybe a few paragraphs I'll try to summarize what God has been doing in my life since then.

I first received the calling during my first year at summer camp at the end of my Gr. 12 study year. Up unto summer camp, I had always had the heart for evangelism and was very pleased that those I've talked to at the chinese gospel camp even as a young, unexperienced Christian did come to accept Christ by the end of the camp. The point is, being an evangelist of some sort from the beginning I have seen as my calling.

For the last few years, I've been giving nothing short of God's guidance through various servants of His. Even the first day during the Engineering orientation at Ryerson I met a Missionary's son who was a VISA student here in Canada who has been a good role model for my first 4 years at Ryerson (then he graduated).

Lately I've been sharing about this calling with other servants of God from other or those training to be servants of God. i.e. Julian Wong, Pastors from other churches, representatives at the Christian Colleges and University fair, etc...So far everyone has been very encouraging and telling me stuff like "If you know that's what God wants you to do, go for it!"; "God is doing His work, now you must be sensitive to His calling."; Nothing but positive encouragement in the last 3 months. And what you said about "God never asked you if you're ready, God asks if you're willing" during that sermon really clinched it!