MIT Classes...

Heh... the title is to just catch your eye. Like I would ever make it into MIT :P Well never say never I guess, if I ever have to return to school, I might not be able to get into MIT for Engineering, maybe Arts LOL :P Not to downplay Arts or my friends in that program, but just that based on what MIT stands for in the states, you would expect that to be one of the easier programs to get into. But for those who know what (single letter)I.T. also stands for, you should be able to figure out what MIT stands for ;) And as a hint, I don't mean "Man", "Musician"...If not, the blog entry should make it clear:

(I'm actually paraphasing some parts, but most of it is original copy and paste from MSN, edited out the MSN names, but some parts are cut out)

My talk with PJ (Pastor John) today wasn't extermely productive, he didn't tell me much of what I don't already know...I guess it's just whether I can apply what he said....but we're going to have more sessions in the future...Well he has others he probably needs to speak with too before he leaves so it's only going to be bi-monthly...In PJ's eyes, it's not whether God called me or not, he doesn't doubt He did, but PJ doesn't think I have enough confidence in my identity in Christ to be ready to serve Him in that capacity yet...I agree, if I know God wants me to do this, I shouldn't need anyone's approval, i.e. my mom (as in my biological mom), but I even have that now... even though I didn't get a chance to share that with PJ also... but ya, he's right, only I'm the only one who's still not confident enough of myself and who I am to take the next step yet...That's what our sessions are going to be for, he's going to help me find the confidence...But now that he's said his piece, it's really true though, I've probably just been in denial, even Yu Ling who's only known me for a year or two tells me something similiar, God may want me to use this temporary time period of unemployment to "really find (myself)".
And it relates to a lot of things, including when I worked for Nihon when I scratched a bit of the car on the blind side on my first day (the far rear left corner, but only because I just BARELY scratched it cause I couldn't see the water pipe or heater type thing sticking out besides the garage door opening as well at night on my first day), I got really timid and scared behind the wheel and my boss knew that with many of the cars I drove and I would always take the car REALLY close to the wall (because I can , but it scared some of them ) on the driver's side cause I was scared I might bang on the opposite side, he said things for example "Come on buddy, you need confidence... we can live without a side mirror...."

(Busy, going to end it here for now)