Change of perspective...

On Halloween night I had a chance to do something different for a change. Well, not different to me, but new. I helped out with my church's childern's program on Halloween night. It's was fun, but when our leader said he never done it before, he clearly hasn't! No offense JM, but you have a lot to learn about kids! Maybe you should think about having some of your own :P or on the other hand, if you don't know how to handle them, maybe you shouldn't have any! :P

The one thing that bugged me was one of the kids said I was "depressed" and hmm... I forgot the second word he said... "broken hearted"? "Broken spirited?" But regardless, the fact that someone thought I was depressed was already pretty bad...And then the son of one of my closer uncle friends said to me "That's because he is depressed and ____" Ouch! Ya, maybe I have been depressed and grouchy (was that the word, I can't remember) lately due to the pain in my foot and work and all. But it was wrong of me to let that affect the love I showed to the kids in my church. Well I wouldn't necessarily say I was taking out my frustration on them persay. However, it would make it seem like I'm not happy to see or be there for them I guess.

I talked to my boss on Wednesday and he confirmed what I "believed" to be true. That he feels I'm too slow when it comes to repairing cameras. It's not like I can't do it, but I know I'll probably never be as fast as those what I've come to call "made in China" people. :P Hehe, nothing personal, but the rate they put them back together I always joked that "Now I know why everything is made in China!" :P Yes, he knows my "talent" isn't in that area, so I was correct in assuming that when he makes me fetch cameras from the shelves for repair or do optical adjustments all day it's because he just wants give me something to do that I'm more efficient at so he can keep me employed as a favor. Aww... My cousin's right, I should be thankful for all this help the Christians in my church are giving me, and I am! I just haven't had time to type up that entry yet.

Reason why I titled this entry "Change of perspective..." is because at first felt kinda blessed with what I've been given, then I began to see the downside of things, especially when my foot started hurting from standing too much at my new job. And now I've changed my perspective again to being more neutral about everything. I guess life here on earth is always going to be full of good and bad, but nonetheless, we gotta make the most of it for Him while we're still around. ;)

[The above paragraph may sound confusing now, but I promise it'll be more clear when I post some of the older unfinished entries...]

Nicole Nordeman songs seem to be a big theme this month with some of my blogging friends. So I've decided I'm going to post a NN song of my own that really reflects how I ought to feel. I've been so blessed recently that I'm beginning to feel that maybe the pain in my feet is God's way of reminding me to not forgot about Him during my time of blessings. This song is kinda OLD, so you might not know this one Joyce. Hehe, Joyce, I'll let you know when's the next time I come visit so you can sing it for me :P I heard it on the sample CD being handed out by RCCC (Ryerson Campus Crusade for Christ) as part of the orientation packages during the first week I was at Ryerson. I wasn't sure what it was before I took it, cause I might not have took it since I'm already a Christian. But actually I've made use of these packs over the years and often share the contents with other Christian and non-Christian friends ;)

Tremble
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Have I come too casually?
Because it seems to me
There's something I've neglected
How does one approach a Deity
with imformality
And still protect the Sacred?

'Cause you came and chose to wear the skin of all of us
And it's easy to forget You left a throne

And the line gets blurry all the time
Between daily and Divine
And it's hard to know the difference

Oh, let me not forget to tremble
Oh, let me not forget to tremble
Face down on the ground do I dare
To take the liberty to stare at you
Oh, let me not,
Oh, let me not forget to tremble

What a shame to think that I'd appear
Even slightly cavalier
In the matter of salvation
Do I claim this gift You freely gave
As if it were mine to take
With such little hesitation?

'Cause you came and stood among the very least of us
And it's easy to forget you left a throne

Oh, let me not forget to tremble
Oh, let me not froget to tremble
Face down on the ground do I dare
To take the liberty to stare at you
Oh, let me not
Oh, let me not forget to tremble

The cradle of the grave could not contain Your Divinity
Neither can I oversimplify this love

Oh, let me not forget to tremble

Face down on the ground do I dare
To take the liberty to stare at you
Oh, let me
Oh, let me not forget to tremble

-Nicole Nordeman

I also dedicate this song to a Special Someone, I know it's not very accurate to our situation cause I never do anything physical with the sister I love. But I just want to say that even though we don't talk much when we see each other and we have that unspoken understanding, I wish we did talk more though =)

When You Say Nothing At All
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It’s amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don’t say a thing

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There’s a truth in your eyes sayin’ you’ll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you’ll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
Old mr. webster could never define
What’s being said between your heart and mine

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There’s a truth in your eyes sayin’ you’ll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you’ll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There’s a truth in your eyes sayin’ you’ll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you’ll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

-Alison Krauss